You are right about him not knowing how i truly felt about things. I was scared to tell him . For example: I told him i hated the military and wanted us to get out. His response was " I only have 6 more yrs left till retirement " I understand its not too much longer but with the military getting smaller and more deployments going around we would be seperated most of those last years too. I am sorry I did my time (10 yrs)and I cant take anymore.I know they have good benefits but are they really worth all the hell they put the family through?

I agree on what you say about treating each other differently we both admitted we noticed a change in each other a few yrs ago.
While he was talking to me in the beginning of the conversation he said babe then corrected hisself and called me by my name. Was that out of habit or does he still care?

I have been answering him honestly but why does he even care anymore since we are getting divorced. Why even bring up the past and all the pain I can understand if he wants to work it out and i would more than happily take the abuse and mudslinging but if there is no use why even talk about it?
What do you mean he doesnt know exactly what to do now? are you saying he may be changing his mind aobut the divorce?

It is hard not to be brought down by his words I feel horrible enough already. I cried pretty much the whole day after he called . I know he is hurting and misses the kids terribly. That is why I wanted to fix "us" so the kids could have there parents back and we could be a family again.

You know, Ive been doing alot of thinking lately. I worked an all nighter last night, this morning, whatever. Anyways, Im sorry toosad, I may be letting some my own feelings from my experience get into my advice. Thats why Im not to sure that Im the best person to give it right now. I may be way off in interpreting your situation. Though I cannot think of any reason to step out on a spouse. But I really cant speak from the persective that I have.

My situation, is maybe not geared for this website. I hope my wife is not having an affair, maybe she did...I dont know. I have been told by her, that she feels like a caged animal, and that there is no hope, and no chance that we can work our marrige out. This has seemed to all happen in a matter of a few months. I think that my wife has been leaving this marrige for many years now. I just get so frustrated.

I have to get some rest Ill finish this later. I am nodding off at the key board.

-Bnugg

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