Thanks maw...

I understand everything you are saying. It hurts and we will not ever know why or what.

guess there are just some people that think grass really grows greener elsewhere. So green that they can't understand it's because a damn sewer is beneath it...lol..

Just remember as I was told by a relative recently...The grass gets greener two ways: 1)by someone with real love who lays down plant food or 2)By an idiot who shovels manure on it.

Hi Peachy - So glad to hear the ORDEAL is finally over and you are coping. Take it a day at a time - all that pain has to slowly work it's way out of your life, but then you will be truly free. Please take good care of yourself.

I move into my new apartment next weekend...scary, but all three of my daughters have stood by me and cheered me on. My oldest drove all the way up from Tennessee to make sure I was getting packed and moved in okay, helped me plan what to take, where to put what furniture, cleaned and painted some rooms at the new place. I for sure am the very blessed one in all of this, I have my kid's love and respect and that is worth more than anything. Am pursuing settlement options now as there is nothing left to fight for, he has made that perfectly clear.

Your precious son is the best blessing you can have. I will pray that you find a really good job very soon and can really begin rebuilding your lives, both of you. What a team you two will be through the years to come!!!

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Hey Peachy,
Just wanted to check in with you. I understand what you are going through, as I'm going through exactly the same thing right now. I'll be so strong one day, thinking that things will be better than ever because now I'm not living in a one-sided relationship (something I didn't realize was going on until too late). I mean, I feel better off in a lot of ways, but then I go through my bad days, thinking of the man I once loved and wondering if I'll ever, EVER, feel that way again about another person. I mean, I loved every inch of that man, and maybe that was unhealthy because I couldn't really see the true HIM.

I'm also trying to find out who I am, as I've been in love with this man since I was 15 years old. He helped shape me into the adult I am (he was only 2 years older, but still we grew up together, forming our ideas together). I have a lot of "growing up" to do now, and I'm beginning to see that little by little. This single life may be good for me to help me determine who "I" am, when it's not clouded by who "we" were.

Anyway, good luck to you and your son. Sons are great, huh? My two have helped me so much...I only want what's best for them. They are super kids, and are my life. Let us know how the job hunting goes. I pray for God to open doors for you never imagined before!

Good luck!
Kim