First let me say Hello, I have never been here or posted here in my life. I just didnt know where else I could get an opinion from someone not involved in my life. <BR>I meet my husband when I was 16 years old and I never felt so close or in love in my life! I was obsessed with him from day one. 4 months after we meet we ended up pregnant. Shortly after we split up till our daughter was born. Soon after that we were back together. When my daughter was 2 we married and have been since. It was 8 years this past Tuesday. During the course of our marriage we have both made some very bad choices, whether it be finacailly, with our careers or lack there of, or cheating. The biggest problem as always been my husbands lack of modivation and is lack of work ethic. He never works, he will be somewhere for 2 years and then take the next 2 off. We have 2 kids right now and with the rent the car bill and everything else we are dying here. I can barely feed them 50% of the time. I am borrowing from Peter to pay Paul so to speak. I have finally found my career niche and I am working very hard these days , 50-60 hours a week.. I see my kids as much as I can and spend every minute of my weekends with them. I cook dinner, I do most of the cleaning. Its like I am that song "I'm every woman its all in me" Well I dont want to be every woman! We fight about this constantly, its all the time. He says he is trying but he hasnt worked in over a year now. I is actually causing me to be very depressed. I have never been depressed in my life!!!Right now I am personally doing better then I have ever done in my life and he is dragging me down. I love him I have been though hell and back with him, from Cheating to Drugs , to No work etc..... I have always had faith and love in him and he knows that. Me and him are like two guy friends more then the typical wife and hubby... We check out chics together lol we love the same music, we think alike, we act a like in someways, but in someways we are total oppisstes. <BR>I dont know how much longer or how much more of this misery I am supposed to indure untill he becomes the man that I know he can be. I cant imagine him not in my life but more and more I hate him in my life. Its like that sister or brother you cant stand for all the messed up things they do but you still love them and are a part of their lives. What are your thoughts?<BR>
