I am new to this board. I will start by telling you a little about myself. I am 32, my husband of 3 years is 35. We have 1 boy (his from a previous marriage) 2 daughters (mine from a previous marriage) and we recently had a son together. He is now 4 months old. I am at my breaking point with this marriage. I believe he is also. We hardly ever spend time together. The free time he has, he runs off to camp or fish, leaving me home with the baby and the girls. He usually takes the older son to his mother's while he is away. I am of course going to decline going on these weekend outings because the baby burns easily and it has been too hot to have a baby outside all day. When we are together, the TV is always on, there is no communication other than updating each other on the bills situation, and a lot of the time, he ends up sleeping on the sofa. He is very critical when I insist on going somewhere without the baby, but I go anyway. I feel like he basicly doesn't respect me. I have many resentments towards him. I honestly don't enjoy his company anymore. The thought of camping or fishing makes me want to vomit. A lot of these feelings stem from the last 2 times we went camping together. I was stuck in the camper all weekend taking care of a colicky baby while he went fishing with one of his buddies. This happened AFTER we discussed taking turns with the baby. He completely broke his end of the deal. I feel like I am constantly walking on eggshells around this man. I feel as though I have to be a buffer between him and the kids. He is very moody and yells a lot when he gets frustrated, although, the past month, there has barely been any communication. I have a few girlfriends I go to for support. My feelings are hurt a lot of the times. There is no affection between us. No kisses good-bye, or good morning. He just leaves when he's ready to go. He knows this hurts me. I have told him. I really don't think he cares. It's like he is trying to get even with me for something. I am considering a divorce. I have tried to communicate with him using "I" statements, not judging him. Focusing the conversation away from pointing fingers, ect... I feel like I am beating my head against a brick wall. I don't really want a divorce, the kids and I deserve much better than this. Is there any hope???
