So tonight I dropped off some clothes at my ex SIL's for her son, (we have a really good relationship) and the kids wanted to go to the park in her neighborhood. I'm always up for a good playground, so off we went. I sat there looking around, and it was EXACTLY the kind of neighborhood I would love to live in. It was the kind of neighborhood I lived in when we were married. The houses were really nice, and it had the most fabulous playground with great tennis courts and a private pool for the area. There were lots and lots of kids, and they were all polite and played together nicely -the kind of kids you want your kids to play with. Many couples strolled by, while others were happily watching their children. I was sitting there feeling a bit sorry for myself when I saw an old boyfriend from college. He was with his wife and three children, and they walked over to their beautiful house hand in hand, and I thought "This should be MY life!" But before I could get too wrapped up in what I don't have, I started thinking about what I do have. I have a great house and a fabulous yard. I have my kids with me, and the ability to stay home with them for 2 more years. I have a loving and supportive family nearby (parents and two sisters) and a strong church family. And most of all, I have God to help and guide me, and who has given me the ability to be happy in almost any circumstance. I felt overwhelmed and ashamed for feeling that way. Anyway, thanks for listening. I just felt like talking about it, apparently. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />
Krista

Krista, you should jump around here and post this sort of a positive statement ALL OVER!!!

You helped start my day, in a positive way.

Lets remember to give thanks, where it belongs, we can never Thank God enough.

WhoamInow....cool name...I have asked myself this ??? many times....I am the BS, 21 yr M and in the throw's of a nasty Divorce....My WW started, perpetuated and filed...many false recoveries along the way...I am just getting back from Vacation w/ my 3 children in which my W fought me for going and has fought me while away and filed emergency motions and has thouroughly upset my children to no end...basically, in her filing she wants all but my soul and she destroyed that 10 months ago...I like you have been in the mall or parks or movies, etc...and see FAMILIES....I suddenly say this is what I had and I want it back...sadly, my W has chosen something else and I have accepted that and am in this to win for me and my kids, but also like you, I am greatful for what I have nd have had...Not sure where we will all end up, but I have turned my W over to the lord and suspect that at some point she will see all the losses and regret it, but I must move on for the four of us...it is lonely at times and frustrating to be put in this position of pain, but I have a strange peace about it after 10 months of hell...so, good for you and I ask that you pray for us as we begin this trail of tears...

Me 42
WW 41
M 21 yrs
3 children, 10,13,17
D'day, 11/08/02
Pregnancy w/ My BF, abortion, and 4 false recoveries
7/8/03,WW gets self arrested and spends night in Jail
7/24/03, WW files D
7/28/03, WW court date continued till 8/11/03
WW has NC order for me and 3rd party visit w/ kids, 26 weeks Mandatory Batterer's Intervention