How many out there did'nt think they would ever get through all of this alive but God our wonderful Lord and savior carried you through and you learned to have forgiveness and peace in your heart for your spouse? Plus, you even learned how to have a closer walk with Christ and put him first (instead of your spouse) in your life. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Yup, that's exactly how I feel. I'm not sure of God's complete plan, but it sure worked to get me back to church. Now I'm just trusting in him to lead me the rest of the way and give me the answer of whether to stay M or not.

Amen!

<small>[ August 13, 2003, 05:42 PM: Message edited by: Eduard ]</small>

You know I was doing so much better with the forgiveness thing until he started pulling this crapola the last two weeks.

I am now again fighting feelings of complete hatred.

I am trying so hard to trust that God will deliver us from this mess. There is no other hope at this point. Please keep us in your prayers. Pat

Yep - me too. But there are those ups & downs like missery said. I have come closer to the Lord, and still am working more with the Lord. All I can say, is if it wasn't for the Lord, I wouldn't be here. I was suicidal, and wanted to end everything. My x-husband did tell me that I was not loved by him, did tell me that the other woman was what he wanted, did tell me that he would of not dated me, and sexually I was inadequate. So there was a not of self-esteem depleted by my husband. But now, I know that I am a good person. I know that sexually, I am timid, and once he did love me for this. But now I know that I am okay sexually, but that is not important. I know that I am a good person, and that God does not make junk.

So that ups/downs stuff misery, is all about his lovebusting. I have had plenty, given out plenty, and I know that I love my husband, but he is gone now. I am me, and working on being the best person I can be.

Trust the Lord, he will provide.