Finially taking back by life and boy do my kids hate it!

When EX and I first split up I was a basket case. I couldn't function. Went to the doctor for my yearly check up and the doctor said I had bad PMS or something and of coarse he prescibed PROZAC. It was wonderful - just went through my daily life with out a care. But then I sat back and took a look at what was happening around me and I didn't like it.

I was letting my oldest child (18) treat me like crap (prozac said I didn't care). I would just walk away and hide in my bedroom. My middle child (17) just kept to himself, stopped going to school and would sleep all day. (Prozac said that I didn't care). My youngest child would tell my that I was NO fun! (Prozac said I didn't care).

And it seemed I only didn't care when I was at home. At work I functioned just fine. Love what I am doing etc. It just seems that as soon as I got home - (I didn't care).

Well I went to a counselor and we talked for awhile and she told me that for 2 years I have not grieved the end of my marriage - grieved that my children were falling apart ect. That I need to grieve.

I went straight home and threw that great bottle of PROZAC away! I looked around and saw what my family was becoming! (Disfunctional) I couldn't believe I let divorce get in my way of raising my family. I became angry at myself for letting it get this far. And low and behold, I started to grieve. I started to feel again. I started becoming the parent my children needed (and boy they hate the NO word).

I am not afraid anymore. After 2 years of my head telling me I am divored, but my heart not letting go - I am starting to finially GRIEVE my marriage and moving on. It is taking baby steps, but I am not running to my bedroom to hide from the problems that face me each day! I am not running away when my children get disrespectul - I am in there face! I am not afraid to venture out by my self. I am learning ME again. Learning that it is ok to be single. That there are thousands of single parents out there.

I am finding that I am becoming the person I should of been 2 years ago when this whole mess started - but that I will be ok (I hope) in the end.

Taking back my life and starting over is a good feeling!

Thanks for listening!

AWESOME - I can feel the energy in your post!!

I recently stopped taking Paxil that I went on during my marriage/separation/divorce (1+ years ago)! I feel so energized about life once again.

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