I don't know what or how I feel. I filed for divorce. WH has been a complete jerk. I have asked for no contact and he stole my car. He has been trying to upset me on purpose. He calls to be a jerk. I am trying to move on. I have been on several dates. He drives by to check on me while I am on the dates constantly. He keeps spewing crap like I was mentally cruel through out the marriage and that is why he left. (I have to wonder which of his personalities experienced that) It certainly was not one that lived in my house. He says he is never coming back and divorce is coming. I told him he was right. He was no allowed to come back and I had already filed as I had told him. Part of me just wants to be free from his crap! Part of me is so scared to be single again. Part of me misses what could have been. But I guess it could never be with the man WH has become. Anyway I am feeling scared and unsure of things today. I am feeling depressed at the loss of my marriage. How do you move on? How can my WH just leave this marriage unresolved, with what appears to be no regrets. How can anyone be so unemotional about wasting 12 years of their life. I don't know I am just feeling down today.