Husband says that we are definently getting a divorce, he says he had tried to make himself love me for two years and he can't. He said that the appointment on the base with the chaplain was not going to help anything, he was just going to tell him what he told me "THAT HE DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE," That is what he yelled out at me when we were talking on the phone.
He is in the Navy and can go on with his merry little single life, while I have to raise our son by MYSELF, I have to go through all the struggles of raising a child by meself, while he don't have to deal with any of the problems, he lied to me for over two years, he could have told me that he didn't love me and got a divorce two years ago, but yet he led me on. I think I am going crazy. I have to stay where I am right now to finish my last 4 months to get my A.A.S degree and then I will have to go back to AL to live with my parents, where all the memories of the 2 of us and our son are at. I can't stand it, sometimes I just want to die, he was the one that I wanted to be with until I died, how in the world am I supposed to cope with moving back in with my parents, raising our son on my own, he is about to start to kindergarten in Aug, start a new career, and deal with not having the love of my life in it? I am almost 24, and already my life is this huge piece of crap, what am I supposed to do, when I still love him, how do I survive like this, I really need some support right now, I am so lost. Please tell me someone feels like I do? It seems like it does not hurt him at all, I guess it doesn't because he is not losing the love of his life, I am so bitter and hurt about my life.

Yep, it is miserable when things like this happen. You are still young and can make a new life. And I wouldn't give up on marriage completely. Keep reading here and posting, we will help you get through this.

Also start taking care of YOU. Start making yourself do things for yourself. It is hard, but put him on the back burner for awhile.

There is nothing I can say that will truly make you feel better. Just know that your life is NOT ruined, although it has changed. Let yourself know that you are NOT useless. That you are NOT going to be this unhappy and sad forever. That you will pick up the pieces of your life and remold them into something wonderful should you so choose.

It is incredibly hurtful when this happens. I have no idea whether you will be married a year from now or not, however, I DO KNOW that you will be alive and living with your son. It will still be difficult, regardless of marriage or not. But you will be persevering.

Now is the time to work on helping yourself. Don't be rash. Don't run away, AND WHATEVER YOU DO don't seek to fill the gap his departure has opened. Don't make any significant decisions at all in your life at this moment. You will not be able to rationally think about ANYTHING for quite some time. So be very careful about ALL your decisions. I think that the best thing to do is do NOTHING spectacular. Work on yourself with the principles here on this board. Read, read, READ... I read over 30 books on everything under the sun and got a little out of each book.

Give yourself permission to feel badly. But don't allow yourself to completely withdraw from the world. REALLY think about whether you will need to move back home. DON'T make that decision just yet. IT might turn out to be best, but don't make it in the heat of the pain.

Love your son. I would try NOT to think about being his mom as "I have to raise him alone while (he/husband) gets to live the single life." Perhaps you are right in this thought, however I know that I wouldn't give up being my children's daddy and primary caretaker for the world. My ex is 'living the life' so to speak, but I know that when I see my boys sitting around the table with me while she is out somewhere... there is no other place I would rather be. I will take their presence over any beach, vacation, bar, party...

Thank you truly for the replies, I just feel like my life is spinning out of control and there is no way to stop it, I couldn't dare think about dating anyone and not in the near future. My heart is broken. I got over my first broken heart when I might my STBX, maybe the third time is a charm to meet someone, but I'm not going to get my hopes up. Next time I will not be thinking like a schoolgirl and think like a woman when it comes to finding someone to spend my life with. I feel sometimes though that our son together will be a reminder of what could have been with my husband. My son looks just like him. Don't get me wrong, I know now that I am the one that is going to have to be there for our son and make sure that his life is as happy as possible, I try to put myself in my sons shoes, and am going to try to be the kind of mother that he needs me to be. I grew up with both parents my whole life and they are still together, so I cannot possibly know what my son will be feeling, all I can try to do is to make his life a happy one. I gave birth to him and nothing will ever make me forget that. Next time though, I need to do things the way that God intended them to be, get married and then have children, not the other way around, I feel like my husband was forced into marrying me because of this fact, really sad but true. But I do not regret my son for one minute, but I do regret the way that my husband will not have to do the parenting like I will, he will miss out on so much.