i need to vent here. i am in the process of getting a divorce. i have no one i can tuyrn to. my family and friends are so wishy washy its hard to believe. first they support me (actually encourage me) to file for divorce from my cheating, manipulative, abusive, controlling husband of almost 19 years. now that i actually have the check in my lawyer's hand, all of a sudden everyone is trying to discourage me. guess what, those of you who think you have the power to influence my thinking...i have been thinking about this for over a year. i don't care if i am alone. i am alone now anyway. if i stay, his behavior will revert right back. he will never change because he is so insecure he can't admit to mistakes. not even to save his m,arriage. if i have to live under a bridge in my car, i will be better off.

thank you for allowing me to vent. seems my famiuly might have got concerned they might have to actually give mer a little support. theyt don't have to worry, cuz i don't need then either.