Tuesday would have been 19 years. So far, no triggers. June 25 will be the 1 year anniversary of D-Day. Haven't decided how I will feel at that time.
I am amazed how far I have come!
Last summer, from D-day through the rest of the summer I thought I would not make it one week, one day, or 1 hour. There is no way I would have believed I would make it a whole year, and be feeling good again! I have a new house, my kids are happy, and when I see my ex now all I feel is pity.
My ex and OW have been over for a while now. He moved into his own apartment this weekend, and told younger son that he is dating someone else now. I suspect this relationship will not last either - he is grasping at straws now to find someone - anyone - to help him forget his miserable life. I wonder what he says to this new girl when she asks what happened in his marriage?
Think of me tomorrow. I wonder if he will even remeber.

WOF--
How true that is, what a difference a year can make.
This month, I would have also been married 19 yrs.
But, I don't feel anything towards the date now, not sure how I will feel when the actual date rolls around.
How wonderful for you, that your life is at a much better place.

Take care, I will think of you!
K.

Womanoffaith5

Long time no hear from....
June 2nd would have been 18 years for me....
I'm going thru a really down time right now....
My kids school is almost out, my ex has taken the week off so she is getting the kids earlier and is not dropping them off in the morning earlier....
When she picked them up at 3:15 so my kids and her boyfriend could all go to a movie....I hit a low point....I layed down for 2 hours....
I may have hit my lowest....

....tomorrow they are volunteering at my kid'school, end of school day's.
Should I have a problem with the boyfriend volunteering too?
I have been volunteering all year, I am up there everyday....I hope they don't expect me NOT to be there just because they will be.
It will be hard on me, but it is that way nearly everyday, anytime there is practice or games for the kids....they are there.
Depression has hit me hard....I started taking some anti-depressents, but all they do is seem to make me tired.

Wish me luck Rufus

Of course it is going to affect you Woman of Faith, it was an important date. Mine was memorial day, anniversary of our first date! I celebarted that as our anniversay for the 6.5 years we lived together and after we got married even if we forgot our wedding anniversay Memorial day was our time. This was not the first bad one we have had, and I prepared myself for it.

rufustfirefly that is hard for me too. He is trying to do what I have done for years and not doing too badly but it hurts as it is my job to be their mother, I follow lots of advice smile, keep strong, the truth will come out eventually. And thats the best I can say to you.

It is the cheaters job to justify destroying you. I am working on the forgiveness. With 2 pastors. Ha ha ha yeah but he keeps hitting me again. So the forgivenees of yesterday doesn't count. My hope is to make it thru tommorrow with the forgiveness in my heart.

WOF5
Just wanted you to know you were being thought of today. Hope your day is filled with only pleasant thoughts and the GOOD memories <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Rufus-
A dear friend of mine just sent me an email, with a bible verse. It is a verse I held tight to last summer, and I want to pass it on to you:
Jeremiah 29: 11
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

I also want to tell you 2 things that I hope you can try to remember on the tough days.
1. Things are not always as they seem.
2. No matter how awful things are right now, they will get better. You will have good days again.
This OM has no busines volunteering at the school. The two of them are trying to look like the happy step family. But take a look at it - they are trying way too hard.
My ex and the OW tried this crap last summer. he would attend events for her kids - she would attend events for mine. It was a lot too keep up with. It helped to bring their relationship to an end even faster. He got tired of hanging out at her kids events - after all, he was looking for romance - not kid stuff. He would get impatient with her - she would resent him, they would fight.
In the beginning, I was sure that I would be miserable for ever. I can look back now and realise that the first couple of months were bad, but gradually things got better. A little better each month. It is hard to see your progress at the time. But later, when you look back, and see where you were in the beginning, and where you are now, you can see the improvement.
What are you doing for yourself these days? Forget what the two of them are doing - what are YOU doing??
Start thinking of things you can do for youself. Things that will make you happy. Let them see you having fun, and moving on, and wondering what secrets you are keeping.
The best revenge is a life well lived.

WOF

I hope you had a good day today. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{WOF}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

Rufus..what kind of antidepressant are you on? they dont all have that effect, maybe your MD can try something else. {{{{{Rufus}}}}}}}

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