It's been a while since I have been on this board. I guess I thought all of my marriage problems would just simply disappear, but that is certainly not the case. I finally graduated from school in May and I am now looking for a job, with of course no luck. My husband is still in FL in the Navy and I and our son moved back to AL to live with my parents, since He didn't really want me down there with him anyways. He told me before I left that I could stay down there in another off base apartment because the other one was too expensive and the lease was running out on it. But he said that he would not be the primary signer on the lease that I could be, now how do you expect me to do that when I just filed for bankruptcy a year ago because of enormous hospital bills and no insurance before he went into the Navy. So basically I feel that I was really pushed into having to move in with my parents. This is all really a nightmare can't really believe it and don't want to believe that it is happening. He said that he can't keep me in limbo forever so he is going to go ahead and get his lawyer to send me papers through the mail that I have to put my income down on which is 0 and sign the papers. But my lawyer told me a few months ago that he's never heard of anything like that and it is best that I do not sign anything. My H said that I should sign them now and child support for our son will be figured solely on his income and that he will have to pay more child support which was fine with him because he wants to take care of him and because I am his mother. He said that if I get a job before all of this gets figured up that child support will be less, which I already know. I dont' want to sign anything which I am not sure of.

Sometimes I really do think he has something wrong with him mentally. He did go to the on base counselor to tell him about his problems. And the counselor told him that he thought he might have depression. But he told my H that he didn't want to refer him to get a mental evaluation because it could mess up his career in the Navy. So in other words he is not going to get any help and I am going to loose my marriage because of it.

Who knows he might be cheating, two weeks ago when he came up to see our son I looked in his wallet and found a condom. I confronted him with it, and he said that a guy that was in one of his classes said that someone gave it to him because he believed in abstinence and wanted to play a joke on him so that guy gave it to my H because he didnt need it so in turn, my H just goes ahead and puts it in his wallet, doesn't make much sense to me, looks like he would have thrown it in the garbage. We don't use condoms, I'm on the pill. So that just really makes me wonder. He acted like a few weeks ago that he wanted to try to work things out, he said that I was going to have to trust him and I just blew it when I went looking in his wallet, I told him that I was sorry. Now he said last night that he is going to get started with everything, that he shouldn't be putting me through this pain, but I am in pain without him. It is soo hard living away from him and seeing him 2 weekends a month. Everytime he calls he ends the conversation saying that he just wanted to speak to our son, why does he feel he needs to say that? That maybe I would get my hopes up or something? I have had my hopes up many times since this all started in November just to have them shattered again. I can't take much more of this. It's crazy. All of this talk with him telling me that he does not feel inlove with me has been going on now for two years, guess I should be used to it, but it hurts so bad. I guess I just need some advice or something, don't really know.