Your such a sweetheart! Thankyou, for your very warm welcome back, I was so touched in my soul.

You intercepted right at right time. It does feel like home, and vg to be reconnected MB and God family again.

I do still feel very disorientated, and wonder almost dreading what next might come leaping off the keyboard.

The traumas, as there is a great deal more to come yet, I suspect, nice thing I feel the debriefing process at work, and doing the grief work part, I am finding I am going up and down like a yo, yo with the emotions and go through a tug a war. It appears a good half of me is repaired and but definately more to come.

I have much sorrow to work out and saddness part is still difficult to completely shake off. In order to survive I had to be in extreme control which is not my nature, just to survive a life and death struggle. I wonder at times he done yet. I should think he has what he wants.

You made such a difference, and your words were so timely such a healing balm too, for my wounded heart. I am do mean that sincerty. Your kind validation has lingered on with me during these passing wks, which I have not forgotten.

I encountered yet some difficult times, blew a few gaskets.

I can see that I am still deeply traumatized that I can't even spell straight. All my words appear correct and yet I feel the distress. All that trauma that has been bottled up in me, for so long, how could I ever find words to tell like it really was.

Being placed in such dangerous situation which XH. It has all been almost all surreal, like a movie, that wasn't me or my XH, or what happened to my family. I replay back and it all goes into slow motion.

I am at the wind bag stage from what I see. I not sure where you see the poetry, or literary potential. That's very polite of you just the same. You must be from deep down south.

I felt nothing but intense raw emotion and pain.

Test of my healing will be when I just get one liners in.

Very perceptive, in describing the "entity". Yes, that about describes it.


Your XH was the same way. I don't know if they they themselves quite understand what took them over.

Depravity leap into sheer insanity. I looked up all the various definations of instanity, and really the word means the person in at state of insanity are not aware of their actions, or reality.

XH is very, very aware of what he is doing and in possession of someone faculities unknown to me. Why I am this particular target I still don't understand on some levels I do understand and others yet not.

I imagine drugs, alchol over a course of a life time can do terrible re-wiring to a mind that can alter person so drastically. The adultery aspect brings out the very frightful worst, as alchol does to. Male menopause????

So bizzare. XH just seem like evil machine intent in destroying our spirits.

I guess I didn't understand the meaning of double cross or could ever imagine someone knowing God and turning away from him. Foreign to my mind.

I too, hope I will never have to exchange anything further.

How is your life and how long did it take for you feel set free from it all?


Blessings and prayers. Thankyou, you have meant so much to me and being for there at such a critical point as JPH... I almost hesitated sending my orginal post off. Thought I would just write to myself, delete it, and well come back to MB maybe in another year, once I am more healed.

Do you feel different now that you are divorced. Do situations feel different? Curious.

Balloons of hugs,


God bless,

Hi Skydiver,

How are you doin'!? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Thank you for your words to me. My friends often tell me that there is a very powerful "anointing" upon my life. There is a call on my life to speak peace... to "shut down" the wind and waves of the enemy. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

It touches me that you received the Holy Spirit through me... cause when anything good happens... that's God!! Every good gift comes from the Father of Lights in whom there is no shadow of turning... no change... always 100% Life, Light, and Love.

Well, anyway, I also do have a "knack" for picking up on the gifts of others. I pray you keep your journals and edit them and create that book of yours one day! I see an excellent, outstanding, poetic/literary gift and talent at work in you. That's a gift of God's grace... and it will touch many, many lives as you share your pain and how God makes beauty out of it... in spite of it... even right through midst!

How can He do that? you ask. Well, if you saw what I saw... you'd realize you're beautiful... like a city shining on a hill. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

He gives beauty for ashes!!

Sometimes a marriage needs to burn so that God's bride can be set free, rise above it all, fly high, and shine!! Well, you're doing just that in process.

Sometimes we're like a phoenix rising from the ashes... on wings of eagles.

It touches me that my words touched you... and confirms the call God placed on my life. It isn't me when someone is touched as often they report to me. That's just because God doesn't call the equipped... He equips the called.

Well, I don't like to talk about me too much... but when I have more time I'd be glad to chat because you've asked.

Just quickly catching up on the board, here, saw your post... was so touched by the generosity and kindness of you taking the time to address me.

I thank you so kindly for being so gracious towards me.

You're a great awesome person... purified through the flames of the XH's demise.

I guess I'd know, sister,... cause I've been there. Not saying I'm awesome and great... but Jesus is in me... and He shines more brightly... once through the fire.

Have a great blessed day and would love to chat more.

Your sister,
Your friend,

Laura

Hey Kid Sister,

Blessings, blessings, blessings. What a lovely surprise, wow. Yes, it is so obvious, God has really annointed you, with turbo power and great love. I can feel that too, in my heart.

And deifnately gifted you with the mega ministry of gifts in your quiver, especially encouragement and hospitality to let HIS light, love and life shine in, to blow away the spiritual warfare clouds that blow in.

Your just a supreme sweety pie. A darling lamb. I feel in my spririt such a close kindredness connection that I don't run into too, often and when I do it's so rare and precious. I guess that is my orginal sense and the fact your so tuned in.

My journey so far throughout the body of Christ in my area, is there so many people still pleasantly fast asleep or simply to wounded to move from sick bay and make it through the day.

Even though I am still severly emotionally damaged. As I have alot of trauma attached, which comes out in small doses. Writing anything is still darm, difficult as there is such pain yet alive, a few raw nerves dangling.

I started journeling for awhile but, the old memories pass by like a video.. the emotions still need time to simmer, down. Many of friends think I should write a book about what happened as it was so surreal bizzare.

However, there is much excitement in my soul, much like being a kid on Christmas morning. Waking up early, feeling divine joy, bubbling, enthusiasm, excitement, waiting to rejoice and get the celebration going, while the rest of household is fast asleep.

Remember the times, there was not a stiring, nor even an encouraging word, as there is simply to much snoring going on to be heard, and motion to be quiet, or please find a nice pew, or simply go back to bed. Because my heart at the moment is too hard to be spirit led. So pray for me, pray for me, for those who prefer a more gentler shake up and a polite wake up.

Rude awakenings are just way too, much. Dude...

Being supercharged already in the spirit, it's hard to tippy toe around all the time. So I am simply delighted your awake, in sync and such a beautiful person, gifted to touch, in those tender sore spots. And let God's shine through and his love upon us here at MB with your kindness, compassion, goodness, wisdom and joy.

I think we know what that feels like on the holidays. Forbearing, patiently probing for any signs of life strirings, awakenings. All it takes is one person, hope is restored.

Of course waiting on those who by nature are just he grumpy in the am, to pass and collect one's faculities, or until the first cup of coffee to kicks in. God grabba jabba.

Isn't is wondeful that GOD is always awake, and his Angels, busy, humming, always in a good mood. Definately, a morning person, always love a good celebration. Having coffee with God, in the morning is such a kool experince. My favorite time and delightful that he is first one awake, and greet me.

As for writing, I have been struggling with wanting to write children stories for 10 yrs now that I have shelved in the back of mind.

A have several stories from on high to write. The problem with all this marital warfare conflict it consumes so much energies, and really zaps the spirit.

I soo loved your brillant line--whoah touches my spirit in a profoud way, in such a perspective. Can you see how wonderful a truth you just expressed... Think about it over--over flow of the spirit.

Sometimes a marriage needs to burn so that God's bride can be set free, rise above it all, fly high, and shine!!

Wow, now's that's a jewel best seller title to a book, if I ever saw one. Powerful, true, liberating, set the captives free, even if she is in her wedding dress and taken hostage for 20 yrs.

Put's everything from the throne room zone into perspective.

But all that one flesh dross definately, needs to be burnt off. Did we learn our lesson of being unequally yoked or what. As for the imcompatiabilty issuses set aside there is such little time for all the good, wonderful, just, honest, beautiful things we need to do.

I would love to know more of your story, you have gone through so much and have great strength...

Balloons of hugs,
Smiles...

Hi sky,

I just enjoy the poetry of your words. It's just beautiful. I'm not surprised we have become so quickly bonded in the Spirit.

The name God gave me for the ministry He has called me to is "Rising Hope Christian Ministries".

Somehow, you knew. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Our stories, often, are the same.

When we are unequally yoked - God could do a couple of things. He could leave us in our condition... or He could ignite the flame and set us free.

I think that the reason the entity self-destructs in our presence is because the love of God is a flame. If we were not so full of the Spirit - they wouldn't self-destruct so in close proximity to the flame.

I'm thankful to the Lord for setting me free from my trial by fire.

I continued to study grace as the Lord called me to do. The entity became increasingly impregnated with evil as I became increasingly impregnated with Christ. That's the way it works sometimes.

If these men with whom we have become increasingly yoked cannot and will not be saved - and they are given space and opportunity to repent by God - then God's judgment falls upon them in increasing fire.

The fact that they reached total depravity is a testimony not to our failure "to save them"... but a testimony of the rising hope of glory within us... Christ in us... the hope of glory.

In other words, your XH did not reach such a great place of demise because, somehow, you "failed" as a Christian. As your light shined ever more brightly... he burned up.

His demise is a testimony to the light of Christ already shining through you... so rejoice! Let your light shine! If the depraved burn in it's presence... such is the nature of our reality.

The Bible talks about the light of Christ shining ever more brightly as the church progresses... and depravity increasing in equal degree.

The darkness becomes heavy, thick, and grotesque... as the beauty of the bride shines forth until that day.

You are blessed. You have not failed.

You've been promoted.

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God bless,

Laura

Sister, sister, I just rejoice you are my sister.

Deeply profound, my spirit takes in every word and resonates at the highest truth of it all. I love the ministry name, a very, very, very special ministry God has blessed you with.

It all connects, makes sense and registers at ultra high frequency. Did you already understand this at the beginning on the conflict, or did odd unexplainable start to occur?

I never quite understood possession. Do you think you were prepared?

I must go into deeper prayer.... so much to digest and process. The move is making me sleeply...

Talk in the morning...

Hugs,hugs....

Hi Laura Lee,

I posted this on a thread-- and will post this for you thought you might enjoy it. I have been handing this letter out to a lot of people and it has really touched hearts, especially ministering to many of my children friends. Soul touching...

I didn't write it, my friend teaches as an aid, and hands it out to her students when they are having a bummed out day.


Dear Friend,

I just had to send a note to tell you how much I love you and care about you. I saw you yesterday as you were walking with your friends.

I waited all day hoping you would want to talk with me also.

As evening drew near, I gave you a sunset to close your day and a cool breeze to rest you.

And I waited but you never came.

It hurt me, but still I love you because I am your friend.

I saw you fall asleep last night and I longed to touch your brow. So I spilled moonlight on your pillow and your face.

Again, I waited, wanting to rush down so that you could talk.

I have so many gifts for you. But you awakened late the next day and rushed off. My tears were in the rain.

Today you look so sad, so all alone. It makes my heart ache because I understand. My friends let me down and hurt me so many times. But I love you.

Oh, if you would only listen to me. I really love you. I try to tell you in the mountain streams and give the birds love songs to sing.

I clothe you with warm sunshine and perfume the air with nature's scents. My love for you is deeper than the oceans and bigger than the biggest want or need in your heart.

If you only know how much I want to help you. I want you to meet my Father. He wants to help you too, my Father is that way, you know.

Just call me, ask me, talk with me, please, please don't forget me...

I have so much to share with you. But I won't hassle you any further. You are free to call me. But it's up to you.

I'll wait... because I LOVE YOU!

Your friend,

JESUS