I've been with my wife 10 years and married for 2. Midway through our relationship she had an affair with a married man. She fell depply in love with him, even told him she has been looking for someone like him whole lofe. He eventually returned to his wife and me and my wife (fiancee at the time) and me recociled. She promised it was over between them and would never contact him again. Over the last 5 years I found through extensive ,snooping, they not only communicated frequently. That they also went to lunches,invited him to our home while I worked and even told him she was pregnant by him(which ended up being a lie). She even went as far as to cast a love spell on him.After every indiscretion I forgave her and eventually married her.
A recently as March I found e-mails between them discussing us planning on a family. She has P.I.D and explained to him the difficulties we were having.He expressed remorse over our problem. She asked him why, he didn't want a child with her or even wanted or loved her. I confornted her and she explained she has no feelings for him save anger and resentment. I disagreed and told her I felt she was still in love with him. She said she was only concerned with how people felt about her and not specifically him. That it was a woman thing. I didn't buy it and told her I would seek a divorce. We then found out her mother had a terminal illness and was recommended to contact hospice. Learning this she asked me to be with her,because she couldn't endure this alone. She couldn't bear to lose two people she loved in so short a time. Problem is I'm still hurting from her breaking her promise to me so many times over this married guy who obviously has no interest in reuniting with her. I can't exactly bring our problems to her now that she's stressed over her mom.
But I am very unhappy and feel as long as she has issues with this married man, that she will never fully love just me. And that I am cheating myself out of what a marriage should be about. Still she denies any emotional attachment to anyone but me. Her actions tell me different. I've been a fool 5 times already because of this and feel it will never end. I can't bear to be hurt over this again. Heeeeelp.

I agree with everything you said. I hope you will find happiness in the future. Your wife was very cruel to you. I think five times is enough.
I wish you luck.