Took the kids to Disneyworld, on vacation for about 10 days and thought I had my MB habit kicked and was able to work some. Started lurking a little, now have the urge to post.

Vacation was wonderful the kids and I had a great time. It ended 10:30 p.m. 4th of July when I had to return them to WW. My oldest was hysterical, sobbing and screaming "I don't want to go, I don't want to go, I don't want to go,........" He had a double handed grip on the pull handle in my truck and she was trying to drag him out without much luck. She looked at me and said," Aren't you going to help?" and my reply was "What did I ever do to you to make you hate me so much that you will do this to our children?". I thought she was going to hit him to make him turn loose. She finally got him out and drug him screaming into the house.

We had depositions last Friday. I got to hear WW admit her earlier affair for the first time. I already knew but she has denied until then. She put it at about 11 years ago instead of the 7 that our friends had told me. Kept my head up, fought back the tears, but it wasn't easy. She called me Saturday night and apologized because I found out. Not that it happened, not that she has lied about it for 11 years, but that I found out. She never wanted that to happen. Is that screwed up thinking or what?

Another revelation of depositions was her vacation with OM. She said that he asked her to go away with him, she didn't know where other than to the beach. Her face lit up when she was talking about it and she had the look of a teenager in love. So yesterday she brought me the kids for a week so she and OM can go to her unknown beach. The day before that was our 17th anniversary, it went unacknowledged by both of us. I am glad to get the extra time with my kids but the circumstances really suck and leave me with the big knot back in my stomach. She told the kids that she was going to the beach with some friends and that OM is going to be there. She doesn't realize what she is doing to them.

I'm keeping contact to a minimum, not asking any questions, only answering the yes or no questions and those as monotone as possible. Is it wrong to hope they get eaten by sharks?