Post deleted by FoundMan

Bill,

I am happy for you that you made it to recovery. What ever it takes to those of us who need it, is a blessing. Who would think that our greatest problems could be turned into our greatest assets.

It's a disease of perception thats for sure. 11 or 12 prior to my finding sobriety, I was really drunk, fell asleep at the wheel and went over a 30 foot embankment. Fortunately for me, it had rained which left the ground soft, so the car didn't flip. Someone driving by saw me & got me out of there before the police came. My response - I was just out of practice needed to drink more, to stay in "shape" Oh the insanity of it all.

When I did quit and join recovery, it was more of an emotional and spiritual bottom. Recovery is a great place to be. It truley is a gift. I never went to treatment just toughed it out day by day in AA. What made treatment amazing for you?


Blessings,

D.

(((((((((((((((((D.))))))))))))))))

“””I was really drunk, fell asleep at the wheel and went over a 30 foot embankment.”””
Though you didn’t know it, you had a co-pilot that day. He wasn’t done with you even though you where done with yourself. One of my favorite songs that I relate to is a Christian song by Ray Boltz and it says “God gave me back my tomorrow when I threw my tomorrow away”.

Bill,

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Like me, though you didn’t know it, you had a co-pilot that day. He wasn’t done with you even though you where done with yourself.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">There where soooo many times that God intervened for me and kept me safe. Seems he had a plan for my life.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> ”””What made treatment amazing for you?”””
Like you, when I made the choice to go into treatment I was at an emotional and spiritual bottom. I felt as if I was lying in the gutter and having to look up at the rats. I recall on the way to Valley Hope for a fleeting second I thought that I could swerve my car into a semi and this sorry excuse for a life would be over.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Actually i kept drinking for 11 years AFTER driving my car off the embankment !!! It was during family weekend at treatment (my husband was the addict and if He would just stop drinking everything in my life would be OK) that I went to an AA meeting "in support of him". Low and behold, God had a sense of humor! I went for my husband, but found I needed to be there & never left.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Then I get to treatment and I’m a middle class professional with a good job who is also a Lay Speaker, I’m so much better than these Addicts and Alcoholics around me. </font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">That was my attitude at first in AA. To me, alcoholics were old guys in raincoats living under bridges.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">
But you know what, that attitude lasted about 10 minutes. People loved me when I thought I was unlovable. We shared our absolute worst stories about how crappy we were and yet there was no judgment. Add the love/support received from the patients to the care/nurturing received from the staff and it’s just a mind-blowing experience.
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Loving people for who they are not what they do....I kept waiting for something to happen, ask for money, come join my downline.... but it didn't as it was freely given.

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial"> Another thing that's amazing to me is that alcoholic/addicts from all walk of life are the absolute most sincere, honest, and humble people when they are truly in recovery.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I agree!!! Those that are TRULY in recovery are my favorite people. They are a joy to be around and the sharing on a level that doesn't happen to most. I have deeply spiritual friends in my church, including our deacon, but those in recovery take my heart.


Hugs, Thoughts, & Prayers to you too!

I wouldn't be the person I am today and am very gratefull for that. It's amazing to think that by working the 12 steps that I could be the person I always wanted to be and more. It gets better and better and better..... for those who stay with it.

Blessings,

D.