Please read my other post, I will be posting in General Questions II as well. I really need advice and support to keep my head above water.
He filed for Divorce, What Now? at
http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t53215/ and at Marriage Builders below>
http://www.marriagebuilders.com/forum/ultimatebb.php?ubb=get_topic;f=34;t=012342 I realize that what I am going through is my fault, but I have no one to talk to. Go 2 my second IT tomorrow.
This weekend went 1/2 and 1/2 ok, we actually went to my relatives in Illinois. He came with. He went home early with my brother/sis in law. I talked to him @ midnight wished him Happy New Year, we said I love yous...Talked to him Sat morning and he sounded like my old H, he was so loving. I said goodmorning and so did he, we had a great conversation. Said the weather was bad at home and not to drive home until Sunday, which I did. All phone conversations went well.
Got home on Sunday @ 4:00, his D was excited to see him as was I. I miss him terribly, but I try not to overdue it so I don't push him away. I just gave him a hug cuz I was home and wished him a HAppy New Year. I said you don't want to hug me back? He went ballistic....said what do you want from me? He says he wants to be my friend but he shows such hostility. I can't deal with it, I am so emotional I've become hopeless. Went to church this morning and my eyes automatically welled up. I just can't do anything right. I am lost.....I have no strentgh to keep going. If he doesn't want me, I ned to give up, this hurts to bad. I realize I put him and myself in this situation but if we are supposed to be moving forward with the DV civally and friends it will never happen. What can I do, I need your help.
I'm no longer hopeful...just patiently waiting for the hurt to subside!
SG
<small>[ January 02, 2005, 06:00 PM: Message edited by: Saving Grace ]</small>
