Again, with the hard choices! My VP finally called me regarding my concerns about my forced transfer. Ignored my concerns re: hostile work environment and gave me an ultimatum—January 13 or termination. I just can’t do this anymore. Forced moves forced divorce, forced situations. I need the income, benefits, etc., but how do I report to an environment that blames me for my depression, moves me 40 miles away, and tells me I’ll like it? It's the A and Dv all over again! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

What in my life am I doing that I want to do? I feel like I’m doing everyone else a favor by not allowing them to see how badly their decisions hurt me.

Seems like everything just keeps crashing down on you and you can't stop it...


BREATH........DEEP........


Stop negative thoughts - POSITIVE - Moving Forward with your life thoughts....This transfer may end up being the best thing for you....You could start a life like you've never had before...Meeting new people, new places to have lunch, dinner, social time...

I know it's hard to start over in every aspect of your life...but, what choice do you ??? You will get past this terrible time and you may in 6 months look back and say this change worked wonders on my self-esteem, moral, etc.....

CYBER HUGS...............................

Given the soap opera you've described at your current job, I'm afraid I really don't understand why you want to keep it. Maybe you'll hate the job at the new location, or maybe you won't - I don't recall that you ever said why you believe you'll hate it. But it might at least give you a change of scenery while you look for something else.

I can appreciate that this feels like "more of the same" as you've been trampled on, seemingly from all directions. I haven't got anything to say that is likely to make it feel any better, as your situation just plain sucks. All I can really say is that it helps if you can accept the garbage as a given - including the self-absorbed patronizing comments of your abusers - and just say "OK, this is what I've got to work with; now what am I going to do with it?"

Maybe you can't do anything that you want to do right now. But you can still be who you want to be.

I have a veritable cavalcade of sh#@@y deals in my life now. Am I supposed to accept them all? My job is setting me up (I was actually TOLD this by a sympathetic administrator) my WxW could care less about flaunting her trigger-laden R in front of me. It all feels so raw. What then, can I do? My IC says ‘you can’t fight the system’, others say WxW doesn’t care. It’s everyone for his/herself, etc. The only way I can cope in these environments is to be numb. How am I supposed to parent my kids or run a department that way?

I need some kind of break in this.

Just spoke to some colleauges bemoaning the sitch at work. multiple stories abound. Appareantly they (bosses) HOPE I don't report in tomorrow. Gives them an easy out...

Incidently WxW expressed her sympathy for for my sitch and says" I know I'm the last person you'd ask for help, but call me if you need anything. I MEAN IT D" Why would I do that? Sincere or not, she is incapable of being a friend or support for me now.

just more of the drama. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />