Ya know I thought I was losing it those first few days after d-day. And then when WH actually moved in with the OW out of state a week later --I don't know what I was doing.

But this week I have peace and more of an even keel- still think I'm loosing it at times, but in a different way. I have turned everything over to God to work on- REALLY HARD to stay out of the way LOL. At the beginning of this week, I felt convicted that I need to pray for WH as a WIFE. My friends don't seem to understand, they say I still need to pray for him as the father of my children, etc. But I feel like I need to pray as his wife- because we are still married even though he isn't acting like it. But of course all my angry and hurt feelings come out, so I went and got The Power of a Praying Wife so I wouldn't wander <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

I guess I'll continue to do this till we aren't married anymore (I haven't even been served with any papers yet.)

My life has been taken over by jumping back into college. And this weekend the kids had some stomach bug- one of the low points of single
mom-ing 4 kiddos- they stair step getting sick so we've been homebound for 4 days. And their dad gets to miss it. Of course my dd just picked up a picture of her dad and started talking to it- he hasn't called them this weekend at all. I hate that he is too deep in a fog to truely know what he is missing out on and how it is hurting our family.

Of course every now and then, I get jealous of all the people here who have gotten a second chance and depressed that I may never get mine...
But I'm using this time to prepare for it just in case it does happen by putting God first, otherwise I guess I'll be a prime catch the next go around <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" />

Kath
me 29
WH 32
4 kids
seperated 5/04
PA began 6/04
d-day 3 weeks ago
WH moved to TX to live with OW 2 weeks ago.

Oh I also have a question about OW. WH's family knows about everything- they are in varying stages of support (some completely tell him what he is doing is ok and the others know what type of evil he is battling.) and don't live near him.

OW doesn't have OP, but does have her family as a big support for them both. Is it worth it to track them down to let them know ? Should I remind OW that he is still married? I know the answer here----- walk away right, its not in my hands right now :-) right
Kathy

There are lots of opinions on this. Check out this site - www.saveyourmarriagecentral.com - for the opinion that you should definitely "out" the relationship between WH and OW. You could post on GQII for more opinions, then do what you think is best.

I feel your pain and I would like to recommend a website that may will help you, Are you a Christian, because it is a Christian website. I'll say a little prayer for you too.

http://www.restoreministries.net/cgi-bin/index.cgi?page=prayer_request_added