Just wondering how you were doing? For some reason, your posts seem so much more positive the past couple of days....almost like you have been filled with a strength that I hadn't seen in you before.

Hmmmmmmm....don't know. I could be off. But I have read a couple of your posts here recently, and just felt like they were different.

Hope things are well for you.

LIT

L.I.T.,

Thanks for asking. I've been good the last few days. New job is going well. Daughter hasn't been perfect, but she's doing better and although she did something yesterday that was much against my rules and I grounded her for the night, she actually stayed home (a big surprise) and we watched a movie together. So I've been calm, which comes across in my posts.

This is how I work--if I can stuff my other issues, I do fairly well. If I don't talk to or don't think about my XH, I do fairly well. If I'm too busy to think about being lonely, I do well. And the closet skeletons only become an issue when I think of remarriage or finding a partner. I've been too busy this weekend with work, and my daughter, and my son home from college to dwell on those things.

But being alone is becoming more difficult. My supervisor and I were standing fairly close to each other in a group of people, and just the presence of a relatively attractive male (albeit several years younger than me) being that close to me was enough to make me really miss being with someone. So eventually I'm going to need to work through things.

I took a rare nap this afternoon, and dreamed that XH and I were talking, and he told me they set a wedding date. I woke up feeling creepy and empty. I'm going to go get some pet supplies and then busy myself with bills so that I don't think about it.

But right now, I feel pretty good.

LL