I just wanted to thank all of you who replyed to my post. To not feel so alone and conflicted about this whole situation means a great deal to me. I am hopeful that one day my H will be able to open up and talk about the way that he feels about this OC, so far he really can't or won't say to what extent he wants to be in this childs life.<BR>We spoke about the in-law situation and H said that he would let his parents know that the OW is not a part of this famliy in any manor shape or form. THANK YOU LORD!<BR>He did come home the other day and inform me that he had to care for the OC as OW had to go play army. He got her the next day and I told him that because I had not had time to get wrapped around the idea of spending my day off babysitting that I would not be in attendance. I went and picked up ot at work and my H seemed to understand my feelings and respect them. I hope that one day soon I will get the ability to face this child but for now it just does not feel possible. Am I rotten to just really not want to do this yet?<BR>I really am glad that all of you are here thanks!

I just got back into town so I didn't get a chance to respond to your other post, so I am playing catch up. I think you are right in all of your feelings. I don't think I will ever be able to face the OC in my situation. So I have a lot of respect for you to try and think forward. I am so sorry that you are in this situation. I am glad that your H is respecting your wishes and feelings that helps. <P>babstr.