Hey guys. Sorry I haven't written in a while. Things have NOT been going good to say the least. Unfortunately, my health is getting worse. They don't know if it is complications due to the lupus, etc. But, to be honest I am VERY scared....I will try to keep up with you guys as much as possible. It is just that right now I think I am entering into a very <BR>scarey world again(tests. dr.appts, waiting, etc). Just know that my thoughts are with all of you guys, O.K.? You guys have been through hell and back and I know you can get through anything and everything that may be thrown at you...<BR>While I was out, I noticed a couple of "threads". I'll address them as best as I can...<BR>Catnip-<BR>I can't belive the crap this so-called woman is putting you through. I think your best bet is to go on the offense in this situation. Take HER to court for maliscious prosecution, etc. Let her KNOW what it feels like. BTW, how is your other lawsuit coming? She needs to know you are NOT playing her games...<P>ktgirl-<BR>I hope you got the restraining order in place. Just remember to keep records of everything,o.k.? Good luck!!!<P>Resilient-<BR>You asked a lot of questions. I will answer them under the Duranie Story thread, o.k.?<BR>You have been through a lot. I wish you the best...<P>Child Support-<BR>A part of me feels that YES, xMM should help supprt the twins. But, a bigger part of me feels that this was my problem. I created it and it is up to me to deal with it. Xmm always told me that if the twins needed anything to let him know. I have taken him up on that offer once (for diapers). I could definitly use his help financially (I make $17,000 a year), but, getting the help would bring more headaches on me than I would prefer. When W first found out (6 months ago), they offered me $50 a week in child support. I refused it because of our agreement. Call it paranoia or whatever, but it kind of felt like a "set-up" to me (to see if I would still honor the agreement, to see if I was trustworthy, etc.). WHo knows maybe it was with good intentions. But, I find it had to believe after what W did to the oldest twin. Just recently, him and his W have BOTH told me that if the twins needed anything (within reason) that xMM would do his best to provide it. I just feel strange about that. It make me feel like I OWE him and right now I don't want to OWE him anything nor do I want any other reason to be there for him to have contact with me. His is STILL making it VERY clear that he wants to be with me. I am trying very hard to stay out of that "web". So, CS just doesn't really matter as much to me as my sanity....<P>Well, I have got to go. I'll be gone for a few days in the hospital. When I get back, I'll try to fill you guys in. Take care everyone..Talk to you soon.....<P>

Duranie,<P>I am so sorry that your health is giving you problems. Hopefully you will be able to get some answers and some rest. I will be praying for you.<P>babstr.

Duranie,<BR> I feel so badly for you. You are under a lot of stress due to your situation, and that may not help you any. H is working on the restraining order. I can't have anything to do with it, as she has stalked him. I have to file harrasment charges towards her, but am looking into if I have enough of a case for that. You don't worry about me, I'll be fine. You just take care of yourself. Do you have any close relatives to help you care for the boys and yourself when your health takes an downturn like this? I am so worried for you. Take care of yourself, and will be praying for you. And of course when you get to feeling better, please come back and let us know. If you feel well enough to, I'd like to hear how your tests and things go, just to keep in touch with you and know you are okay. I understand you may not feel well enough for that. Hope to see you back soon!!!! Take care.

Duranie: Who's takig care of your kids for you? I hope everything turns out OK for you at the hospital and that your tests all come back negative. We're all pulling for you here and hope your health will be restored.<P>Good luck, Duranie, and God bless...we look forward to your return...all patched up and feeling better.<P>Catnip =^^=

My prayers are with you, and the boys.<P>Jenny

Duranie,<BR>My thoughts and prayers are also with<BR>you and your boys!

You are in my thoughts and prayers. God willing your health will be restored.