Oh Catnip-<BR>When I read your response I could feel your obvious and dreadful pain. Right now you need to recover from this pain. I know easier said then done,right? Listen to me though, O.K? Right now you are grieving. This woman entered your life UNINVITED and has since wrecked havoc on you. That is what your lawsuit is about. It really isn't about revenge, is it? It is about helping you heal yourself and it is about getting some peace of mind, FINALLY. You need to keep that in mind. Forget about feeling bad, forget about the revenge thoughts. Think about the healing process and think about getting over this grief. Look at getting CLOSURE. You need it, and you DESERVE it.....If pursuing this lawsuit is hurting you more than helping you, THAN DROP IT. Don't put yourself through more hurt, IT ISN"T WORTH IT! But, personally I think following through would actually be good for you and will IN THE LONG RUN, help you and your family. I think you will come out of this stronger than ever and I think you and your H will experience a "rebirth" of sorts. WHo knows maybe I am just talking out my butt.. It is just that when I read what you wrote, it killed me. It made me think. Like I said I have TONS of regrets, but what is done is done. I can't fix the past, I can only do "right" in the future......<BR>BTW, you asked me an important question...<BR>You wanted to know that if xMM's W called me and had told me her H was sick, etc. and asked me "back off", if I would....<P>My answer is YES, I would have....<BR>I hope you find some inner peace and real soon. You shouldn't be hurting like this. <BR>Hug your H, and heal....If you want to talk PERSONALLY, you can email me at <BR>duranies@hotmail.com<BR>Please take care....<BR>

Hi Duranie:<P>At this point there is no way I would drop the lawsuit. I don't think there is anything on earth that would cause me to walk away from this. It would be unfinished business, anti-climatic, a feeling of 'wimping out'...something I just could not, would not do.<P>If I am feeling a little discomfort right now, experiecing grief once again for a time, it will pass again...I know this. I also know I am so much stronger than I ever dreamed possible and I got what it takes to take it to the limit...one more time.<P>Like you said, it will give me closure and no, it is not for revenge...it's become a crusade, an issue of principle. I know that I must do whatever I can to make all these horendous events mean something, that something good must come from it. If not for me, then for someone else in my position.<P>You're not like the predatory OW in my situation, Duranie, so you probably can't understand or comprehend that kind of blatant evil, but it exists, and I refuse to allow it to control me, alter my life any more than it has and let 'her' become the victor. I will be the victor. I will win simply by filing this suit. The rest is up to God and the courts.<P>Thanks for reaching out to me and offering your supprt and friendship...and thanks for supplying me with your e-mail. There are some sensitive questions I might want to ask you sometime. Again, thanks, Duranie. Hope you're feeling better and things are turning out well for you and the twins, and that they are well.<P>Catnip =^^=

Catnip-<BR>I for one, am glad you are not giving up the lawsuit. I think you really need this for closure and for healing. Like I said, you<BR>are grieving. You lost something that was very important and precious to you.You need to "find" it again and I think the lawsuit will help you with that. You are a strong person and sometimes even strong people have weak moments. Just "ride through" them. You will get through it. I sincerely hope you do find what you need in life and I certainly feel that you have the capability and the willpower to make sure it happens. Good luck and email me if you would like. Take care of yourself..... <P><BR>