Just wanted to check in with all my friends here. I haven't been online in a bit, as time is so short with working and all...but you all know how that goes. Anyway, I'm doing fine. Just literally taking one day at a time and always praying for peace in my soul and heart and the strenght to continue to move forward. I want to love my H again..the way I used to...but it's not easy. I still love him very much, but it takes a long, long time to "let it go". <BR>When you think you have, it "slides" right back in. But I will admit, it does get better each day and I'm always learning something more about me each day. About my ability to move on and just how special I am. That's something I'd forgotten. I'm also being very very good to myself...I deserve it! I keep you all in my thoughts and continue to pray for each of you. Thanksgiving is coming soon. Inspite of everything, I'm still so blessed by God's grace daily! When my children return home from school everyday safely, I'm thankful. When I return home from work safely...I'm thankful! I'm thankful I've got a good job to go to and so does my H. I'm thankful our jobs allow us to have a nice life...not the fanciest,but certainly blessed. I'm thankful for finding new friends here on this site that have helped me through one of the roughest times in my life. For that..I'm truely thankful! And more than anything...I'm SO thankful that God is the center of my life...I couldn't do it without HIM! God bless you all and I'll be around.<P>Love and Hugs<P>Comfort<P>------------------<BR>Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending...

Comfort,<P>So good to have you back! And, thank you for putting into perspective what so many of us forget to express -- the many blessings that we receive every day of our life.<P>There is no doubt that the OW/OC situation is one of the hardest things we will ever confront in our marriage. But, there are so many other wonderful parts to marriage and family. It is sometimes hard not to let the OC completely overshadow those wonderful blessings.<P>But, when you write it down, the way you have, it is easy to see that our daily blessings far outweigh the sadness that sometimes weighs our hearts down.<P>I too try to look at the bright side and thank God all the goodness that he brings into my life every day of the week.<P>And, I am looking forward to the Holiday season as an opportunity to renew myself and praise Him.<P>- Heavenly

comfort, I just wanted to let you know that you have such a gift with words. I have been in such a wonderful mood since reading your post. It must have showed I even got took out to dinner last night.Just wanted to let you know what a comfort you truly are. with love flowerseed

Dear Comfort,<P>WELCOME BACK!<P>It is really through this storm that I realised that the purpose of our being is to WORSHIP GOD because Glory is to God. I discovered that I couldn't praise God with a heart laden with undeserved pain, poisoned by anger and hatred and bitterness, pierced by jealousy all the time, broken by rejection of all that I was to be to my H - special, exclusive, chosen.<P>When I couldn't sing praises to God, when I couldn't lift my hands and face heavenward, when I couldn't smile at the nature he created, I realised how wonderful it was when I could WORSHIP God, and that that ability is not a given. I was so down, I lost that closeness to God, I lost the joy that was my inheritance, I missed out on the blessings because of the horrid actions of others whose sins do not affect them but give them stolen pleasures. I realised how so easy a prey and puppet I was to the Devil and I prayed to get up and ask God to deal swift justice to my enemies and to banish the OP. <P>I was crippled by the cruel deeds of both the WS and the witch who sent my beloved father to an early death. But God in His Amazing Grace gave my father salvation when he was close to death. He delivered my father from a lifetime of idolatry, something which we prayed two decades for, but was so disappointed when my father was getting deeper and deeper into the other forms of spirit worship. Shortly, before he passed on, my father gave himself a new name to symbolise his newly created self in the Lord Jesus.<P>It is true, that we cannot fathom God's Amazing Grace, when something good is taken, God will give you something even better. Now I will see my beloved father in Heaven instead of Hades. I now believe that having my father BLESSED and ACCEPTED as a child of God, is worth all the pain that my WS's adultery caused.<P>So, yes, it is good, no not only good, but we NEED to gives thanks daily for the blessings that God gives.<P>God bless you<BR>take care<BR>weep

Heavenly, Flowerseed and Weep:<P>Thank you all for your responses. I'm so glad that you all are feeling the blessings of God in yours lives daily.<P>Heavenly, you're so right, there are so many other parts of marriage and family. It's hard to not let this betrayal overshadow the other parts that STILL mean something. But we're human, and pain is pain, and it hurts. But it's only through God's grace that we can slowly work our way through the darkness. I like what you said about renewal. You're right. This is definately a time for renewals. <P>Flowerseed: I'm so happy that my words helped you to be in a happy mood. That is truely what this forum is about. Offering support and trying to help our fellow sisters (and brothers) in whatever way we can. I hope your dinner was delicious!! <P>Weep: I completely understand about a heart being laden with undeserved anger,bitterness and jealousy. It is crippling and it does keep us away from worshiping and giving thanks to God. That is exactly what the devils wants. I wish I could say that my heart is totally free of those things. They're not. But I'm praying them away EVERY DAY. May your father rest in peace. So happy he found God before he left this world. <P>God bless all of you and your families. I hope you all have a wonderful and truely Happy Thanksgiving!!<P>------------------<BR>Remember the sunshine when the storm seems unending...

Atta girl!!!!!!<P><BR> You ARE special, you're the only Comfort41 God ever made, or will make! <P> I'll say it again, why is it that to truly keep someone you love, you have to let go?!<P> I'm back home early, I'll post why later.(I swear,just when you think things can't get any stranger!!)<P> God bless you, Comfort, I can hear the serenity in your post.<P><BR> God bless you all,<BR><P>------------------<BR><P>Gregg