I want to say thank you to all who have responded to my post and all who have posted to let me see other situations.<P>Well it's been pretty good. I believe he has re-committed to me and got rid of all the chicken heads. Even though that trust thing in the back of my head wants to come out an question him every time he is away.<P>Today his grandmother got sick again, so he did not go to work. He is about 45 miles away, his mother called us about 730am to inform us and he got up put on his sweats and left to stop at cleaners do some repair to his car then go to the hospital.<P>Well I called the hospital about an hour later to see what was going on, spoke with his mother got the details. I call him on his cell phone and gave him the details. I asked him where he was and he said he did not feel like getting his car fixed and was on his way to the hospital. <P>I can't remember who called who, but we spoke again and said I sounded monetone, what's wrong. I said nothing, then he said I am in my sweats and that' the last thing I am thinking about (referring to OW's)I said I don't know what you are talking about I was thinking about that, he sound upset I told him I call him back with more news his mother said she would call me.<P>Well I waited two hours for his mother to call she didn't and called the hospital for details. Then I called his cell phone several times left messages, he never answered. Then about 10 minutes later he calls me from his parents house to let me know he had spoke to his aunt and we compared what we both we told. He stop at his parent house to call work and have his assitant fax over paper work on clients since his father had a fax. His sister and her husband were at the home too and they just left to the hospital. <P>At that time I approached him with his comments of me thinking (jealous) I was mad or tripping because he was gone and I was tripping about the OW's. I told him no, you got that feeling. That he brought up the subject. I told him you told me to confide in you and that all that was over with. He confirmed. He said I told all that is over.<P>As I left for work (1pm) I call him again and he phone rang into voicemail, I left him a message I was on my way to work and to let me know what was going on. Before I can get into my car my daughter run out to give the phone it was him, he told me he had to turn off ringer because they say in the hospital it distrubs some equipment sometimes and they were still in the emergency room. He gave me an update. He was going to have lunch with his cousin (male) and possible go to work he did not know yet but he would call me and let me know. <P>Well it been almost 3 hours and I have not yet heard anything. I am starting to wonder is he still breaking it off with these OW, is he really finish? He has change his cell phone, but do they have his work number? I want to ask, but he get so upset about talking about anything to do with these OW. He says he doesn't want to talk about them anymore, but yet today because the way he thought I sounded he brought them up, what does this mean? Are they still on his mine?<P>My head tell me to trust him, but my heart is worried. I don't want to call too much to make it look like I don't trust him or checking up on him alot, but I am worried. I sit here at work in a fight within myself. What should I do? Just wait till he contacts me? Call the hospital? Or not call to show him I do trust him? So if he is out there messing up when I see him later he feel bad. If he is messing up at all. I am in a turmoil. Help<P>Well I could wait, I called him got an update and he said he had left the hospital and was probably on his way to work. I said you are going to work in your sweats, he said Oh I have a sweat shirt on but I have shorts on. I wanted to say how you got the shorts but he does carry a bag in his car beacause one time last week he was supposed to play basketball with the guys at work and he pack shorts. Well I didn't questions and with the answer of probably go to work of course has all kind of thoughts going thru my head. It's 4pm and I know alot of traffic now and he has to go from one county to the other so I will give him a couple of hours, but I think I will call him at work.<P>What do you think? Is he being honest?<BR><p>[This message has been edited by vazquezek (edited December 06, 2000).]

Maybe you should try the "I don't give a damn" approach.<BR>Seems like you're living on the edge.<BR>I know you can't turn off your feelings.<BR>Just give the aloof approach. After all, It sounds like he's giving it to you honey.<BR>You are an important person in God's eyes.<BR>Give it up a day or two. Take a break from your wild thoughts.<P>Take a walk or drive. Think about you for once.<P>Bless you VAZQUEZEK. I hpoe you can come to a better place soon.<BR> Debi<P>------------------<BR>Imagine....

Thanks for your reply.<P>He was at work, I felt better talking to him. Asked if something wrong is he upset what going on you seem to be annoyed. He said no with his grandmother on his mind, he has a bunch of work and now is trying to get it done in less than a half a day. No he was not upset with me.<P>Well then I thought like you did all I can do is the best I can. Be a good person to myself, take my relationship to the next level and trust in God. If I am good to myself and other God will take care of me.<P>For those who do wrong, Karma and God will take care of them, I can stop anyone from doing what they are going to do. <P>I feel a bit better now, but I know I have to get on with my life or I will crumble.<P>It funny how we go into these frenzies, get tired then reasonable with ourselves. I am tired of frenzies. I think I will join a club of some sort, work out, jazzercise something so that I can releve some stress and possibly not be in a frenzie.<P>Why are these up and downs, wild rides? Then I get angry at myself for being this way.