<BLOCKQUOTE><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><HR>posted January 08, 2001 09:39 PM by babstr <P>Hi. I do lurk every now and then. Since I moved in October things seem to have changed<BR>in my mind.I don't have much energy to do anything, let alone write. I don't even get on the phone and talk to my friends who I moved away from, I kind of just dropped off the face of the earth. It seems after the initial hit of everything, and I am coming up on a year since it did hit, I feel rather empty. The fights, and the court junk, and the paternity junk, gave me something to concentrate. Now I am left with the aftermath of what has happened. Since I am pretty much depressed, I am not much help. I can't<BR>seem to do anything with my life let alone lend a helping hand to everyone here. I really feel like an empty shell, and who ever I was has disappeared. I am still trying to decide whether this is the life I can be happy with. I am sorry that I dropped out on everyone here. I truly love everyone here, but felt that I would not be able to help anyone. I hope that eveyone is doing well, I know the pain and struggles that you are all going through. You are all in my prayers.<P>babstr<HR></BLOCKQUOTE><P><BR>babstr, i am so sorry you are feeling like you are feeling. don't isolate yourself! you really need a good support system. who says you have to help here. sometimes we come for help and sometimes for advice. i know you always gave good advice babstr. <P>you sound depressed, and that is not good. you need to try to get out and get back into life girl. life is hard, we all have been there, but it moves and if we don't move with it we get left behind. we have all been in that depressed state. i know, i get that way when i am alone, and hubby is working out of town, like now. but, i try to keep busy. maybe you should go to see a doctor. maybe antidepressants could help. or even counseling. you need to get out of this rut you are in, it is not good for your family.<P>i hope you visit here more often. i know the advice of all of the people here, especially those who know you from way back, could help you. you are in my prayers babstr, that you can get out of this depression and back into life. that somehow that person that is still inside of you, will come out, and be happy again. you are so much more than what you know. all those worries about the paternity test, the court stuff etc, just temporarily occupy our minds, keep us from going insane, from facing reality.<P>you need to focus on you. on healing you, on finding yourself again. then and only then can you decide if you can continue life like this. i pray you will find healing. come back to marriage builders. we can be here for you.<P>my prayers for you,<P>happy_girl<P><p>[This message has been edited by happy_girl (edited January 08, 2001).]
