gem, are you alright? Havent seen you around lately. How is your son doing? I hope everything is alright or as alright as it can be at this time. with love flowerseed

Flowerseed,my son is doing terrific! The effexor has kicked in and he's happier than I've seen him in weeks!<P>As for me,I'm very blue due to p.m.s. this week.<BR>Ow was getting into her car at grocery store last week as I was leaving from getting my nails done next door. She yelled out "hey!" and when I turned she smiled like a witch and said "how ya doing?" real sarcastic. I just turned my head and walked to my car got in and left. I didn't tell H ,just counsler.<P>He agree's she's psycho too. She doesn't scare me at all. I feel disgust for them both. Difference is my H is in love w/me and wants to continue to be w/me. I want to be with him in my heart of hearts,but some days I think about telling him to leave.<P>I'm praying God shows me the path I should take. I just can't decide,Flowerseed.<P>My m.i.l. says to give it some more time and if I decide to leave SHE'LL go w/me to see a lawyer.<P>I love H but don't know if my flood of hurt will ever be easier. I think back to the 70's and 80's and remember how much fun we had,dating,and married. Then I long for the innocence of those days......<P>He just started crying out of the blue once saturday and once sunday. He said "I'm just so sorry for you and want you to know if I died in a car wreck or anything that I'm so sorry I put you through this. You are a good person. I didn't realize what I had. I hate my weakness and how I hurt you." He also danced with me to "Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me" sat(on p.b.s. oldies show)and began to cry and we said nothing, just danced closer and hung onto each other. It was like we were a while ago...in love w/no cares.<P>Sorry to go on Flowerseed. Thanks for asking. # mo. d-day anniversary(?) next week.<BR> Debi<P>------------------<BR>Imagine....

Oh gem what you feeling is the same feelings I had. Believe me in time it gets better. It just takes time we have been hurt so bad that the only way you can believe that things are going to change is by what h do and say it just takes alot of doing and saying before you can believe in them again.I never would have dreamed that it could be so hard or take so long but it does get better. Great news that your son is doing better. Are you still going thru with your new boobs? Next time you see ow maybe you can slap her up aside of the head with one that will shut her up.Hang in there gem with love flowerseed

Flowerseed, you make me laugh. Such a precious gift! With love, cd.