I have been married 5 years and have known my husband for 13 years. We are both Christians and have been in the ministry for 5 years. Well, recently he told me that he did not love me and wanted a divorce. I told him that I still loved him and that God could restore our marriage. The next day he told me that he is feeling like there is no way out and that he still loves me and wants to make our marriage work. I thought we were on the right path but found gay porn and several phone calls to a gay hotline. I do not know how I should approach him on this and what to say. I know that he has not cheated on me with anyone but I am afraid that he will not know when to draw that line.

I have been growing closer to God and the call on my life and he has been drawing away. He is constantly sick and will not listen to me when I try to talk to him about rebuilding his relationship with God. I truly believe in my heart that he is confused but he will not seek counseling because we can not afford it. I am at the end of my rope and I do not know how much longer I can hang on.

This problem is compounded because we have a 4 year old little boy that is the center of our world and we do not want to hurt him. I have told my husband that I am in it until the end. I will not be the one to leave because I love him and I want to be with him. There is so much more but I do not know how to deal with a man that had an amazing and intimate relationship with God has gone to gay porn. I know that I have to say something and address this issue before that boundary is crossed.