I'd like to e-mail you. let me know if you're ok.<P>Debi<P>------------------<BR>Imagine....

gemini, I am o.k, just having a tiring week, and I am going to a conference today, for 3 days. Maybe I need some time to get away, but I will miss all my buddies on MB and miss my communication with you all. I have wanted to respond to some posts, just have had no private time to do it. I think I am sleeping more, earlier in the evening, to help deal with the stress of this all.Do not worry about me. I am feeling stronger and stronger, just still sick this has happened to me,but H is trying his best to make it up to me- I do not know-can they ever make it up to you? I see him with our children and I know I cannot leave him-but am so afraid of how they will feel if and when they find out. I have great resentment toward OW and pray daily she finds a man to father child and keep us out of the mix. I doubt I will ever feel differently about this. H admits his affair was grave mistake, was wrong, had no idea what he was doing would lead us down this road. I blame OW for continuing connection with him by having the child, just do not buy her Catholic upbringing prevented her having an abortion. So far OW has had no further contact with us since sending card at Easter, which we sent back unopened, and we will do same if she does that again.As long as she lays low, and stays out of our life, I will stay here. If not , told my H I will have to move, with or without him. Thanks for caring.Be back in touch in a few days.

ISB good luck sweetie.<BR>I promise you in time you will feel better.<BR>I found out 5 months ago.<BR>I NEVER thought I'd get even a little better.<P>I still feel as you about catholic upbringing and abortion. Where were my former friends morals when she and H slept together? Heck...where were his?<P>I will always know her pregnancy was a ploy to keep H.<P>He also begged her for abortion.<P>It's a way to keep the man around.<P>Well guess what? He finally sees how a 3rd party will prove to HER and me he's only interested in the C.<P>We don't know what will happen. If she disagrees w/3rd party it will prove my point...she wants him!<P>No they can never make it up.<P>They can only prove their love and help us heal with the right things. The right words. The right actions.<P>We can heal in time and still have a scar. But to me when I wavered over leaving...he was not helping me..only wanted to do things his way....and I asked him to leave 6 weeks ago..it helped him to see what he was doing to me. He missed me so much. And, ISB, I missed him.<P>That lead to letter writing then phone calls then actually talking and having a plan.<P>I will pray for you always.<BR>As I said before...you sound EXACTLY like I did way back this fall.<P>Love,<BR>Debi<P>------------------<BR>Imagine....

lsb,<BR>glad to see you're hanging in there. Have a good time at your conference.<P>gem, <BR>So is the man of the house back IN the house yet?<BR>cd