I see now why I have been attacked...I had no idea all this stuff was occuring...and people in pain were being targeted...I came here for help I know I came in strong..because I was raised to love everyone even those who want to hurt us...I have not had alot of the feelings others here have...I guess I am affraid I may...and I dont want too...Because I take the stance I do about OC...I was assumed to be a "crasher" or "nasty Nellie" I have been called more names here in 24 hours than I have been in a year ( with maybe the exception of the OW)...I am not "healing" as the majority of you are...I am not blaming anyone at this point maybe it is too new..I dont know...But I know I did not deserve what I got here..you have been more vile to me and with the exception of a couple of you.<BR>I never banned with anyone in an attempt to harrass an individual...I stated how I felt and who I am...but I have berated for that... I am only posting to let the OW that have been e-mailing me...to please stop...I appreciate your dilemas and I am sorry that you are having a time of it...I am not you BW...and I am going through alot right now...I cant hand hold anyone right now esp a OW...I dont wish anyone harm..and I wish everyone peace..This is MY CROSS and it appears that God intended me to Bare it alone ...for now...<BR>

Dear Mycross,<BR>I am glad that you have been able to see what has been going on here, and why everybody was so suspicious and defensive to begin with. Your writing style is actually very similar to one of the "crashers" (not the way the crasher writes now, but the way the crasher wrote when she first got here). And that crasher has used many aliases, so when you appeared, a lot of folks just assumed you were her.<P>Mycross, this is something that noone should bear alone. I want you to know that I after I posted my email address for you, I have gotten emails from other members asking me if I could talk to you about coming back and "starting over" fresh. I hope that is possible because after talking to you on the side, I feel that you really have a lot to offer everybody here. I can think of some people here that could really offer you some help as well. K, I think, would be a great one to pose some of your questions to. I'll leave that up to you, as I know you are not too thrilled with this site right now.<P>Whatever you decide, I hope we can still talk via email<BR>with love,<BR>cd

<B>MyCross</B><P>I am so glad that you see what has been going on with this forum lately. No one meant to scare you off. (Unless of course you had been like the crashers here.) They were also not meaning to be cruel to you. They just were reacting to the onslaught of posters who have been using this forum to hurt them and all the people of this site.<P>I have been coming here for over two years. God, this site and the most wonderful people in the world, the members here have helped me more than I can tell you. This is a good and wonderful place that has many different tools to help you get through all of this. I am praying you decide to stay here. You just happened in at a bad moment. <P>I also feel I have to apologize for jumping on your thread and addressing <B>LesW.</B> I really should have continued taking the moderators advise and not responded. I had just sat on my fingers for so long that they were as red as my face was in anger at the attacks here. Not an excuse for my bad behavior but an explanation.<P>I said I hated OW, but I have to tell you that although I feel that sometimes, I don't all the time and less than I did before. I along with many BS am working on that issue which seems to be the toughest haul in this journey. I love the Lord and I want to love OW. Sometimes I even do with the kind of love the Lord has. I am human and fall short way too often. <P>So, please forgive me and please stay. <P>Much love and you'll be in my thoughts and prayers,<P><BR>------------------<BR><B>God bless you and all of us. We are all going to make it, all of us! With God on our side we can't lose! What God has joined together let no man put asunder. <P>Samantha</B><p>[This message has been edited by A blessed Samantha (edited May 02, 2001).]

mycross,<BR>Lets just start over, I was not calling you a nasty Nellie that was lurking that had jumped on lsb that I was referring to. Lets just start everything new now that you see what we have been dealing with you can somewhat understand. with love flowers

Up. up and back to the top for <B>MyCross</B> <P>------------------<BR><B>God bless you and all of us. We are all going to make it, all of us! With God on our side we can't lose! What God has joined together let no man put asunder. <P>Samantha</B>