This is basically in response to fizzpop.<BR>I am a little unsure of what you are asking me about trust in your response to my "No Honesty = No Trust" post.<BR>Do I trust him?<BR>No, not at this time.<BR>Is he making an effort to rebuild the trust?<BR>Yes, I believe that he is or I would not be here.<BR>Is it possible to live without trust.<BR>Possible yes, but not easy for either person.<BR>I live with almost constant doubt.<BR>He lives with the knowledge that I don't trust him.<BR>That is not easy for me.<BR>That is not easy for him.<BR>But that is the choice we both made when we chose to stay together and try to rebuild our relationship.<BR>As long as we both share that effort, share that goal, then our relationship has a chance.<BR>If one of us fails to make that effort, or has a different goal in mind then there is not much point in making an effort.<BR>Does he always do everything perfectly?<BR>NO.<BR>But then neither do I.<BR>After all we are both only human.<BR>Humans aren't perfect.<BR>My mother had this old saying that I am sure that you have heard......"It takes two to Tango."<BR>Well, I have added to that old saying....."You can't dance unless you are both hearing the same music."<BR>Right now we are both hearing the same music....we may stomp on each others toes every once in a while, but we bear the pain of that and keep trying to dance.<BR>THAT IS WHAT COUNTS!!!<BR>You also asked if we had children together.<BR>No.<BR>I wished for it, but I guess it was just not in the cards.<BR>The fact that she got what I wished for and he is the one who gave her that gift is just one of the crosses that I carry. It is a heavy one. I deal with it the best that I can. But like I said, I am only human. <BR>I hope this has helped answer your questions.<BR>Hang in there.<BR>I will never promise you that things will get better.<BR>I have heard that too many times myself.<BR>However, I do hope that with time things will be different for you than they are right now. And lets face it, anything different will hopefully be better!!<BR>God Bless The Hawk