Thank you to all who responded to me. Sometimes I'm afraid I sound so negative, and if so, I apologize for that. I'm just trying very hard to face reality instead of living in the world of illusion I did for the 5+ years that H was involved w/OW.<P>Counselor explained more about H's narcissistic personality disorder in my session this week. I've also been doing some reading on the topic, and so many of the characteristics describe my H exactly. I have been reminded of many things he has said or done in the 27 years we've been together, and I understand so many things about him that I have never really understood. Of course, that doesn't make living with the situation any easier, but I have found some comfort in the knowledge that he has psychological disorders within him that can account for at least some of his selfish behaviors.<P>This newest revelation about his psychological makeup has not, however, given me any renewed hope that my life will ever be peaceful and secure again. He is what he is and probably will never be able to be the person I thought he was. In fact, according to the shrink, HE doesn't even know who he really is, after a lifetime of inventing a new reality to suit every situation he finds uncomfortable.<P>For now, I'm still just floating around here in limboland waiting....for what, I don't know. By the way, we bought a garden stone that says "Miracles grow where you plant them." I like that.<P>love, anniem
