I got back this morning from my week long trip to Miami.It was a good trip. My parents and brother live there. My biggest shock when I came home was the realization of how much pain, anguish and anxiety are associated with my life here. I didn't obssess or even think about my H's whereabouts when I was gone. I was very peaceful.H stayed home by himself. I am a questioning my true feeling s for him. He was very supportive and generous about the trip, but I see him differnetly now. I am questioning if all of this fight and struggle i have been dealing with were just because I wanted to win. All of this might be worth it if I felt like he was my true love. Like he made this one big mistake ,but most everything else is fine.It's not. He is a true adolescent inside and I have passed him up. He will never be a true grown man.And now , in my 30's, that is what I want. If he truley isn't the man I want ,then why stuggle with so much b.s.?

Hey there,<P>Glad to hear you had such a relaxing peaceful trip. As far as what you are feeling it is understandable. I am have become so pro-marriage it is not even funny, but it your case (and in all of ours for that matter) you have every right Biblically and in the world to call it quits. Look in your heart and see what your answer is...pray about it. You will know what to do. In the meantime contimue doing these good things for yourself. A little self-time may be just what the doctor ordered.<BR>Love and Prayers<BR>bw

Dear Blue,<BR>You sound mahhhvelous. That trip may have helped you see into your heart and realize what it is YOU want from your life.<P>If H isn't doing the things you need, now may be the time to decide.<P>Perhaps a plan B is in order.<P>Love<BR>Debi<P>------------------<BR>Imagine....