<p>[ February 14, 2002: Message edited by: mnca6713julia3 ]</p>

i am so sorry you have to go through this pain, i too am dealing with an OC and i too have wished horrible things on the OC and OW. what you are feeling (from what others tell me on this board and my therapist) is normal. yesterday i read a post and a scripture was given, i believe it was psalm 141. don't give up on GOD..keep praying he will work it out as only he can do.

Peopole told me when I first found out that whatever doesn't kill you makes you stronger<BR>I thought for sure I'd die but I'm still here<BR>They also say God doesn';t give you anything you can't handle (I still wonder if he made a mistake there sometimes)<BR>I know what you mean about feeling like the buildings collapsed on you<BR>The difference is thpose people couldn't control their tragedy. Ours was so preventable!!! It was caused by mistakes by the people we love<BR>It makes me feel worse that it could have should have been prevented!!! could have so easily been avoided, all this pain <BR>I too wished prayed for abortion, miscarriage, for her to be lying, negative paternity test<BR>I p[leaded with GOd <BR>I've learned my lesson i've suffered already <BR>let it be a close call and let the test be negative now theres no way she could no for sure i still believe that<BR> i think she got lucky naming the right guy<BR>why why why<BR>people miscarry every day!!!!why not her <BR>she was supposedly in the pill, he swears to using condom<BR>it was only a couple (few?) weeks <BR>why did that have to happen then<BR>All those feelings are still so familar<BR>and honestly, they still pop up at times!! <BR>But hes here the test was done it was positive<BR>I guess Im not very good at making people feel better because i still hurt<BR>Just know, I know, i understand, exactly how you feel<BR>i might not be able to cheer but i can listen!!<BR>

up for others....i was about to log off, got to get to class, but ill be back later.....love and prayers<BR>bw

MNCA,<P>So sorry to have to welcome you to our club. It's a very sad perdicament to be in. But know that we all have been through or are going through EXACTLY what you are right now.<P>You mentioned you aren't right with God. Lemme tell you.. I wasn't either. And I honestly believe he allowed this infidelity and child to be born to slap me into reality.<P>It worked.<P>Now that I've given this situation and my heart over to his mercy, I know that there is good at the end of this struggle. I know that he will protect my heart and family. I have faith in him and it allows me to have faith in my husband again.<P>Work on getting right with God again. It will bring you more comfort than you could imagine.<P>Again, welcome. Please post often to vent, rant, cry, pray or just laugh with us. You are most welcome here.<P>Z.<P><P>------------------<BR>Zebra Baby ...<P>Lord, give me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference.