I feel great this morning! I decided I was going to put the exOW/Oc stuff behind me. And concentrate on me. I'm sick of feeling guilty that H chooses no contact. I didn't ask for this situation, I didn't give my H permission to go screw another woman. So let him and her deal with the consequences no longer me. If OC grows to hate H that's his problem he shouldn't have gotten himself in this situation. <P>I know this sounds mean but for the last 13 months all I concentrated on was making everybody else happy and not really thinking about me. I've been left on the back burner. I prayed to God asking him to give me the strength to handle this situation. And I know that he has! I've dealt with exOw getting me arrested, paid for a lawyer, watched my son develop emotional problems and then put my all into making him a happy healthy little boy. Now it's time for me. I'm getting my hair and nails done today. I'm going to enjoy being me. I'm enrolling in a class next semester. And I plan on going to school FT the following semester to get my degree. For the first time in my life I'm going to be a little bit selfish and only think about bettering me and my family. <P>I took on the entire burden and guilt while H has move forward with his life. So ladies and gentlemen Mrs. Unsure has decided to move forward with her life. I will still check in and still chat with all my chat buddies. [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] But I need a break. Thank you all very much for all the support! You are very caring strong women.<P>Unsure

Unsure,<P>I am happy that you are taking the "bull by the horns" and working on yourself. You are correct in your feelings that your H put himself into this position, and it is something he will have to live with the rest of his life. I hope you enjoy your day of pampering yourself!<P>Love,<P>Tigger

Good luck unsure, hope all works out for the best. lvly4

Hip Hip Horray.<P>Three cheers for Unsure.<P>OK, I'll let you take a hiatus from the board... but since most of the time we don't talk about this crapy soap opera we fell into.. you better continue to chat with us! We have too many great talks about life beyond OW/OC. And I'd miss those terribly.<P>See you soon,<BR>Z.

Thanks all for your support. It means a lot.<BR>I feel like my old self for the first time in along time. I'm actually happy again. My family sees it and my friends asked me what changed. I've tried to fake that I was happy but inside I was dying. I hardly thought about exOW/OC at all yesterday. My ride home used to be torture I swear yesterday I didn't think aobut the situation at all. Wish me luck and keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I'm going out of town for a funeral. [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img] One of my older Aunts. I'm hoping I'm still in good spirits when I get home. This is one of those funerals your obligated to go to. Again thanks all for your support. I'll check in on Monday when I get home.<P>Unsure