Had the strange thought to go trick or treating to the OW house with my 2 year old, maybe a trick instead of a treat ha ha, I did leave her a present on her windsheild 2 weeks ago but she is such a slut she probably thinks it is from someone else that hates her and I tell you right now I really hate her and for me it is 4 years dd and still I can not forget about it, does it ever end???

Neverforget,
Just curious, can you tell us what you left on her windshield? That is ok if you don't want to, but I just want to laugh. <p> Probably not a good idea to go trick or treating at her house. <p> I don't know if the pain ends, I hear it subsides and you can get through it, but i am pretty new to this so I can only hope that the pain ends somewhere down the road. <p> Sometimes I pray and I don't think that God is hearing me because there aren't instant changes in my sadness. But I do get moments of peace and days with some laughter, do you? I know that in the instances when I laugh or have an overwhelming sense of peace (although brief) I am assured that God is right there giving me those blessings. I pray that as time goes on, times like these become more abundant and I am able to lay my sadness and hurt at the cross, in God's hands. <p>Ask God to start today to help you forget little by little (and sweetie, we will never fully forget), but we will heal and we will have victory over this. One thing you can do, just a suggestion, is to change your username, because maybe even your name, "neverforget" is holding you back from healing. <p>Take care and God bless