Well here we go again.<p>OW came by the other day to bring OC, unannounced ofcourse. I just walked up to here and almost punched the **** out of her for everything she put me through.<p>But I contained myself. I can not let her get the best of me.<p>It hurts my heart when OC is around because I lost my own child to stillbirth for H. <p>The pain is so intense sometime, that I just want to jump of a cliff. But can not go out like that.<p>OW gloats sometime because she has baby for H and I don't. Well whatever.<p>They say that OC is innocent, but I also was an innocent victim.<p>One day I will be able to get over this and move on, but for right now, all I want to do is meet OW in a nice dark alley.<p>Love,<p>Lakelle

I hear you Lakelle!<p>Just take it day by day and have faith, you will get through this. I have never seen oc since she was 2 months old. It was mutual that my h stay out of her life. Although we pay support..<p>We just have to pray that we have the wisdom to cope. That ow is silly to gloat...you have your h. You are the one he loves..not her. I have found tremendous support and words of kindness here. It is comforting to know that all the emotions I am going through are understood...

Lakelle ,
Maybe you could get one of them blow up bozo's punching bags and put a pic of ow on it. Just the idea makes me feel better. (bonnie dont bother we already know how mature we are)
So sorry your having to deal with this pain.

with love,flowerseed

I'm assuming that OW is raising the kid as a single parent. We'll see if she will be gloating when her kid hits the teenage years and all the anger from the pain she created in OC's life comes to the surface in the form of rebellion... And I have definitely BEEN THERE DONE THAT!!! So let her gloat, if she indeed believes she has something to gloat over. Last time we checked, you still have your man, correct?! So there ya go!<p>We have babies, we raise them, they grow up, and they leave. Marriage is til we die, or either Jesus comes back to get us. You are the real winner here...<p>Don't punch out her lights. Unless she humbles herself, God will have to do it for her. He'll take care of the situation. [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Besides, you have to keep a good attitude in case there is a chance that you ever get pregnant by surprise--don't want to poison that little precious babe with negative vibes... My dentist's assistant is currently pregnant BY SURPRISE after being married for 17 years thinking she couldn't get pregnant! Keep the faith and keep your chin up, girl! It's not over by a long shot! Your situation is so full of hope and promise! You must get yourself in a position where you can see this...<p>[ November 09, 2001: Message edited by: BINthereDUNthat ]</p>