Hi every one. Happy new years! I guess I'm no longer going to be dealing w/OW/OC issues. Busted BF on Friday coming out of another OW's home. The OW confirmed it, because BF disappeared. So do I join the infidelity BB now? HA! Well, after almost 9 years, no point in saving anything anymore. You can't make a man love you or make them want to be with you. So that's sort of been my piece of mind. What's done is done. This piece of mind came after I scared him. I put a knife to myself and cut myself up a few time. I got myself mone good time. Put butterfly stiches. I wanted him to see how he hurt me. I made him watch and if he didn't I did it more. He told me to think of our son. I said he wasn't thinking about anyone, why should I! So he finally told me the truth about everything. It was sad that it took me to do that to get my answers. For some insane reason now, I'm better. I'm calm, clear thinking and I'm even really nice with him. Can't keep hatching pain. Can't afford to focus on what happened. I need to focus on my future with my 23 mos old son. So what board do I join now? Good luck to all of you. May your hearts be filled with the happiness we all deserve. Stay strong for yourselves. I'm trying. I'll say a prayer for all of you (myself as well). Thanks.

I forgot to add how sad I am. I'm not depressed, I'm not devastated, I'm just truely and really, really sad. Sad for my son, having now to do alt. visits, sad for me for loniless. Maybe that's pity. Anyway, I'm just sad. [img]images/icons/frown.gif" border="0[/img]

I am so sorry for your pain. I cannot imagine being in your shoes and catching my h doing this again. Please continue to post for support. You will definitely need it right now. I will be praying for you and your child. I wish there was more I could say to help.

I just wanted to add my support and prayers. I am so sorry for all of this. We put so much into this and somehow or another they manage to screw it up.