Hello,
Well, tomorrow, Jan. 24, is the day that my H decided to have an A last year. I am so sad today. I still don't understand fully why. I am very emotionally right now. I also have my period.<p>I just keeping thinking back to then and wondering what my H was thinking then. I was three months pregnant at the time. At at risk of losing the baby. <p>OW new that I was pregnant and my H was married and that we were having problems.<p>I know that we were having problems then and my H did not thinking it was the right time to have a child. So he goes and have unprotected might have gotten her pregnant. I guess I do not understand still. <p>I still do not know if OC is my H and OW won't talk to him. <p>We are stil having problems. I went to a new counselor and my H will go on Monday. She seems more fair. <p>Better go my son is up.<p>Dawn

A part of your post really hit home with me. While I was not pregnant at the time of H's affair I was struggling with many emotional and stressful events. <p>I remember the tension starting for h and I when I was about 4 months pregnant. I was also told I had a good chance of losing the baby we were having. It was at that time he was beginning to distance himself. It just hit me as I was writing this that perhaps he did that because he had lost a child with OW (before she was an OW)and he had admitted that he was afraid of emotionally attaching to our child in case he too died.<p>I don't know the date the affair started (I don't want to know). I am scared to death of the first anniversay of d day though.<p>I suffer from many triggers setting me off (especaially during PMS). Please know that I am thinking of you and wishing you peace.<p>Take care,
Why

Why,
Thanks.<p>Today is the day the Affair started. I have been crying off and on.<p> I had a job interview. It went bad. I really did not have any questions for him and it sounded that he wanted someone with experience. I really do not have that much experience. He said that someone will be in contact. We will see. I do have all the skills that he is looking for though just not that much experience.<p>I really do not care too much right now my son is only six months old and I am getting unemployment.<p>I still do not understand why. Especially when I was pregnant and my emotions were going crazy then. I just m/c back in August and I was pregnant again in Novemember and was told that I could have another m/c.<p>Maybe H was upset at me. i probably was not being the best of Wife but why could he just gave me a break? <p>I am just rambling. Not sure if this made any sense.<p>Dawn

Hello,
I am still hanging here. I know the exact days because my H wrote it down in his organizer.<p>I just wish I would of went with my instincts and questions before any of this happen. I confronted him he lied to me. <p>He did say back in December that they were just going out as friends. I thought he was going out with a woman then and I was correct. Boy do I wish I kept asking him about until he confessed then maybe it would not have gotten to this point. <p>He said that I would of blown it out of portion if he told me that he might someone because they were only friends at that time.<p>Dawn