Hello,
I really need your prays today. <p>Dawn

You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you peace today. <p>Take care,
Why

Dawn, My prayers are with you .I hope that you are ok...
Gina

Add my prayers to your growing support on this hard day for you! <p>Love,<p>Tigger

Dawn,<p>Praying for you and sending big giant hugs your way.....you will get through this day...it's rough, but you will get through it today...<p>"This too shall pass"......<p>((((((((((DAWN)))))))))))))))))<p>Hugs,
Twiisty

Hello,
thanks everyone. I believe that I am still very must angry at my H right now. My h filed for paternity test mainly because of me for my well being. But then I did some thinking if OW does not care to find out who the father is why should I? My H did call her for paternity test and she hung up on him. She even called the cops saying that he was harassing her. THere was no prove and that was a lie. She does not sound like a very stable person and I do not want to risk my H going to jail if he calls her. So H withdrew the application. I did a lot of thiking and decided because of what OW has done I do not want to H to find out at this time. I know that that OW boyfriend was there for the birth and has moved in with her. OC has a father figure in his life right now. And I believe that there is a chance that he would want to adopt the OC. I believe that OW does not know who the father is and that is why she has not filed for CS or just wants to move on with her life with her boyfriend and not deal with my H.<p>I need time to recover and me and my H need time to work on our marriage. And later if my H wants to see the OC I will not stop him. Hopefully, OW will let him this time. I want to be better finacially before we do anything and I will keep asking H if he wants to find out and be a part of OC life.<p>Dawn

Hi Dawn,<p>Hopefully each day will get a little easier.
My prayers are with you!
There are pros and cons to never finding out
for sure...I know because I'm there too.
OP was/is married but claims the 1nigthstand
with my H resulted in her child. Though she
decided it wasnt worth going thru dna test...
she was still firm on who she believed is the father...
The limbo of not knowing for sure feels like
dead weight. Add to that all the attacks on here
agaisnt husbands and betrayed wives who choose
no contact because it is an IMPOSSIBLE situation
for them. I have been consumed by these
issues since recovering from dday. How strange to
worry about a child I wish I never knew about.
I worry about the future and my children.
My marriage is strong...I could ALMOST thank her
for that.
Sorry to ramble...guess some days are like that.
Tomorrow is a New Day...and you made it past one
year! Take care, fluke

Fluke,
Thanks for the response. I guess I need to worry about my children right now because they are just as innocent as the OC. I am sure OW does not care about my children why should I care about hers?<p>Dawn