Hello All. I am back a little sooner than expected. I was injured in my military training and was sent home to recovery. <p>A few weeks ago we did a paternity test and we got the results back today. My initial thought was correct. Our little girl is not biologically mine. I always knew, but I was hoping for a slight chance that I was wrong. She is still beautiful and we love her regardless. Its weird though to have such mixed emotions. I am mad about the A, but without the A, our baby girl would not be here. Conflicting emotions. Gotta go, hope everyone is doing well.<p>hutch

Hutch,<p>Well, I don't know what to say! I am glad that you know for sure, and that you are home with your 2 girls again! I hope you injury wasn't too bad! I know how you feel re: the emotions! We haven't done a DNA test, and I don't see that we ever will, but we wouldn't have Abbi today if I hadn't been such a complete idiot, fool, "insert your own phrase here"! She is such a joy, and I can't wait for Sailorman to get home to renew his relationship with all of us! Only 1 1/2 months to go! Woo Hoo!!! No, I'm not excited at all [img]images/icons/rolleyes.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Anyway, like I said, hope the injury wasn't too bad, just bad enough for you to come home. Keep up the good work you're doing on your marriage.<p>Tigger

Hutch <p>I can identify with your feelings. I will always remember the feelings of dread when the envelope with the results arrived in the mail. It didn&#8217;t help to have to wait until I was in the presence of my therapist (I had promised to wait until I could see her again before opening it) to see the results even though I already knew the answer in my heart. It was almost as bad to be there, again with the therapist, when I had to tell my son. Like you I love the boy and always will no matter what. I feel that he may be my reward for enduring this ordeal over the past 14 months. After all he wouldn&#8217;t be here if it wasn&#8217;t for W&#8217;s affair. I do love my other son but there is something special about my relationship with the youngest now that can never happen with my oldest.

Yes your feelings are in a turmoil now but you can make something wonderful happen as a result of this. As I have said before, it has opened my eyes and my heart to a new way of looking at life, marriage and the future. I finally know what happiness can be. For the first time in my life I am sure that someone does love me (my wife and my sons) and I am able to fully express love in return.
Every day gets better so just continue to work at it. <p>I sincerely hope that your injury was not serious and you are recovering well.<p>God Bless<p>Used long ago<p>[ March 06, 2002: Message edited by: Usedlongago ]</p>

For whatever reason, God selected you and your wife to be in this precious little baby girl's life. I'm sure He will equip you with wisdom and strength for the challenges that lie ahead. When we are weak, His strength is made perfect in us. Keep the faith!