I posted last night to say that my H has went out of town again. I am not sure if he is w/ OW or w/ his "friends" from work. I am just so disgusted that he had to basically let me know that he was leaving for a couple of days. He loves to see me miserable. I haven't shown any emotions up until yesterday and he took advantage of those feelings to drive the knife deeper into my heart.
I am longer accepted any of his calls. I just don't want any contact with him at all. How much hurt can he put me through? Hasn't he done enough to me? I know that once he gets home and sees that I brought my cat to my parents that he will call. I know that I have not heard the last of him. <p>I REFUSE TO SHOW HIM ANYMORE LOVE OR EMOTIONS!! I REFUSE TO TAKE THIS MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL ABUSE FROM HIM ANYLONGER!!!<p>I don't know if anyone will respond to this, but I just needed to vent. I just can't take this any longer. I want to go away and never see or hear from him again. The pain is just too great. <img src="graemlins/teary.gif" border="0" alt="[Teary]" />

Well, it's me DazedDawn!
I hear you loud & clear...Now that i thought everything was out in the open with my H...the lies are still coming. he can't own up to what ever it is that he wants. I got a call from the O/W and she told me that she doesn't plan on keeping this child beause she also see how he is all about self ! he has been to see her, calling her and telling me different... DAMN.. just top being a LIAR for once in your life!
gotta go I am getting a little to heated right now!

DazedDawn,I couldn't NOT respond to you. You sound desperate. Are you able to stay a day or two w/your Mom? I hope you will. You need to calm down and get some counseling. <p>Everyone here will tell you that you must take care of YOU before you do another thing.<p>Let things with yourself calm down and take some advice from a counselor.<p>You will soon get more replies.<p>Love
Debi

Thanks guys for your concern. I just can't deal with this anymore. It hurts to even come to this website. Here I am pouring my heart out and he is having the time of his life right now. I was fine all weekend until he called me yesterday afternoon and I am literally a wreck. I can't stop thinking about it.<p>He has done such a good job in shaking me up!! He did exactly what he set out to do yesterday. He didn't like that I hadn't shown any real emotions toward him all week and he didn't like the fact that I went out with friends to get my mind off of things, so he figures "let's screw with her for awhile!! I'll show her that she can't get over me!!" <p>I don't need this you guys. I can't take it. I can't take this pain that he inflicts on me constantly!!!

To all of you I say thank you. This is my last post at marriagebuilders. I have spent enough time dwelling on what my h has done to me and not enough time on myself. This has been a great outlet for me to vent, but it is now time to move on to the matter of taking care of my life now. My h is in God's hands now and there is no amount of crying to help this marriage.
You're support has meant alot to me, for I know that I am not alone now. Thank you all. You are in my prayers. [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img]