I have broken my wifes trust and she has stated she simply cannot trust me anymore. She has accused me of three acts of infidelity, two of which I deny because it simply is not true. She already knows about the other. We physically seperated a few months ago and I am lonely. I have turned to some past demons such as porno and even dabbled in an online personals ad (I am only getting amusement from it since I refuse to sign up for the program). I have hurt her and for that I deeply regret my actions. I don't want to be condemned for the rest of my life so I need to do what I can to rebuild trust. I am ashamed of my recent actions and my excuses for my irresponsible behavior has caused my conscience some pain. I need to repent but I am afraid of her reaction. I have failed the Lord and need to seek his forgiveness first. I do love my wife and feel deep down she feels the same, but for now she can deny love and protect herself. I am down in the dust, looking up!

It's good that you recognize some problems you are having. I imagine that you are Christian from your post, if so, you know God warns us of lust. It's a very powerful thing that can destroy so much. However, God gives us a way out when these temptations arrive. Do you go to church? if you do, do they have any programs for people with problems from pornography? That would be good to get into.
It's helps you to be accountable

Have you read any of Harley's books? His Needs Her Needs? Surviving an affair? etc these are very good books and can help you to be on the path of earning your wife's trust back.

What about counseling?

Good luck to you

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Trust is a tough one. My H had a EA hat ended just two weeks ago. Things have been great since then, We are more intimate and open. We have talked about what happened and are very honest with each other. Things are really good right now but I don't trust him. He hurt me deeply and can can't just erase that in a short period of time. Maybe you're not being patient, trust is something that rebuilds slowly not overnite. If you love her, you'll hang in there, get help and not give in to your urges which sounds like what got you in trouble in the first place. My husband thinks it's (his EA) is over so I just should get over it too. Well I'm not!!! He hurt me Will he do it again? Will you? I bet you're not so sure yourself. Ge help to get at the root of the problem- it's rarey just about the affair.