I just posted my profile on my online account. Normally, you wouldn't think that to be significant, but for me, today, it kinda is.
See, about a year ago, soon after my affair ended with MM (and we immediately went to no contact), I happend upon his online profile one day while surfing on the computer. It was an absolute bucket of cold water, right in my face. One I needed desperately.
His profile was full of remorse - you could feel it seeping through the words. In the personal quote section he very outwardly expressed his love for his wife and family as well as his regret for not cherishing them previously.
Even though I was the one who broke things off, it was clear that his fog had lifted and mine had not. And I was mad about that. My first reaction was, "Why, you ______!!!!!! How could you be over me? It's only been 6 months! Not to mention that I just had your baby!!"
It took another 6+ months and coming here to Marriage Builders, working its principles, and learning from people such as yourselves for my fog to finally lift. And while things can go a tad fuzzy and then back into focus here and there, I'm on course with hubby and we are moving at a pretty good stride. (Praise be to God.)
I said all that because lately I've been wondering how I would describe myself if I were to revise my online profile. And for some reason, today it was clear to me and I went in and posted it. And I feel good about what it says - about me, about where I've been, about where I am now. Kinda like Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz waking up from a bad dream uttering, "there's no place like home..."
(Speaking of waking up, I can hear sonny is up from his nap.)
Thanks for letting me get this out.
If you were to post a personal quote, what would it say?
