I've had it. I started a post so I wouldn't always be whining in here but of course that had to be blown to hell. Came in and went into band room to get my radio that H keeps taking in there. Of course, no one's home; I have no clue where he is--no note or anything. Well, I walk in there and laying wide open on the bed are both of his books. One of them has her name and address wrote on the page with stars around her name. Made me want to throw the damn book as far as I could; I didn't touch the thing though. Needless to say, I'm fuming.

Then I come in here on the computer. H goes to pogo.com to play pool. He put on his profile (never had one until the other day that I know of) under Relationship status - "have lots of them, lol." I told H that I didn't like that, H said it was a joke and he changed it to married. I looked just now and instead of married it says "doomed". I feel like telling him yeah it's doomed because of you. Or feel like showing him doomed.

I'm so sick and tired of his crap and I'm not taking it anymore. Plan A or no Plan A I've had it. I'm going to Plan B and if he won't leave then I'll take the kids and I'll leave. I will not be treated like crap anymore.

Any advice because I'm really trying to avoid angry outbursts right now, but don't know what to do with all this frustration and anger that is built up?

dont you think it odd that he would leave it out for you to find ? Maybe you should just ask him first befor eyou get upset/

Dear dumplin......

Stars around her name???? Seriously? Oh man, what a slap in the face. It is no joke to have put such a thing down as marital status. Stay strong dumplin. Married or not, you do not deserve to be treated as such. How long have you been plan Aing? Sorry I am not up to date on your situation.

I dont know if you have read my story but I was one of the marriages that is ending in divorce. I was scared to death for so long. I didnt think I could do it, but now it is almost over and I have never been happier...or smarter. I have learned so much about myself through all of this and I can say I am a different person. And I now know what marriage is supposed to be. My stbx just never figured it out. Please let me know if you need to chat or something.

Love
broken_wings

I did ask him about it when he got home. He said the name was wrote in there a long time ago and the only reason it was open to that page is because it was this month - Okay, since I haven't been snooping into his books and stuff I don't know how long it's been there and it was open to this month so I let that drop. He's a pack rat and keeps everything (even though sometimes he doesn't know what it is later) so that's believable.

On the profile he said he did that because he is tired of me checking up on him on the web (he told me that I could check the history??) when he's not doing anything wrong so he did that to prove a point. I don't know whether I believe this or not though.

Of course he doesn't understand why I feel the need to check up on him; he thinks I'm treating him like a child. So I won't be checking the internet anymore either. Last of my snooping is gone. Even though H doesn't believe me, he thinks I've went through his pants and I haven't.

H blew up from there saying that I was prosecuting him when I had plenty of my own problems to work on. I asked him to make me a list of what I do that bothers him since he still hasn't filled out the LB questionnaire I gave him. He wrote out his list and I have it in my purse for later reference.

He did throw away her letters and the lighter (and I tied up the garbage bag so he couldn't take the stuff back out when I wasn't looking). We also found his necklace. Drupy had taken it and was wearing it right there in the living room. Sorry I have to throw this in here----DUH, steal something of someone's and then blatantly wear it in front of them???? Okay, sorry about that. H didn't get rid of the necklace though; it's now in his pocket. I've heard so many different reasons that I don't know what the deal is. He's told me that he bought it and she was just with him, they went in together to buy it, and that she bought it. So I have no real idea what the actual truth is here---don't really care. I want the necklace gone too whoever bought it----even if he did, she was with him and helped him pick it out.

I'll get off my soap box now. I'm just about to the breaking point, but I don't guess I'm quite there yet.