Hi all,

This is becoming an unhealthy place for me to be. I spend way too much of my work time on this site. It is starting to be like an addiction for me. I can't continue to jepordize my work life for what is essentially, my personal life. I have to get better at sorting those two things out. My inability to do that nearly cost me my job right after D-day. I can't stand the guilt I feel each night going home from work feeling like I have cheated my employeers out of my services that they pay very well for. I especially feel guilty having survived a second huge layoff when I feel like if they knew what I do all day, they should have let me go and kept someone more worthy. Every day I spend a little bit more time here.

I am not leaving because of the arguing on the board. I don't want anyone's apologies because no one has wronged me, but I am seeing this constant arguing as pretty useless. Whoever said that there are a bunch of newbies on here who are getting ignored is right. I come here hoping to help newcomers but instead I get caught up in reading arguments. It is my fault for reading them, for lacking the self control to not be a rubber necker.

I care for a great number of people I have met here. I cannot begin to express the gratitude I feel to those who have helped heal my heart during the darkest hours of my life and have shared my joy during the happiest moments. (Getting the boys is just one that I can think of.)

I am looking forward to our first Thanksgiving and Christmas with our children. I am happy and grateful for a (mostly) healed marriage. LoveLump's eigth birthday is the day after T-day. This is truly the most exciting and rewarding time of my life. We've got exOW and Precious mostly sorted out. We know what works for us and what we can tolerate as a couple, as a family.

I am not ruling out coming back some day but I need to give this a try. I know, I have fallen off the wagon before but I need to try again.

Love,
MJ

MJ,
you will truly be missed. I also look forward to reading your posts. I understand why you must leave, but maybe some day you will be able to come and post to those who could benefit from you.

Dawn

MJ I'm sorry to hear that you are leaving for a while but you do what is best for you. You are very helpful to me and I am a newbie so you do have good advice. We have similar stories and I feel connected to you. I have noticed all the arguing but I'm so in my own world I don't have the energy to let it bother me. I fined it interesting to see how every one feels so strong about their views and it has makes me think sometimes. I respect everyone point of view and though it can be strong at times i find i do learn from them. We have nc and right now thats how it has to be but after reading certian threads I think maybe someday instead of never. I'll miss you. Thanks for all your wisdom!! Happy Thanksgiving. LJ

mj-
i have recently been busy and skipped a few threads, and it looks like those were good ones to miss. but i am definitely with you on spending too much work time here.

this site has been good for me. i wish that we had more instructional aides (like how in the world do i keep my mouth shut when i have one of those love-busting mood swings!), but being with others in similar sits has helped. feeling like others care is probably the best for me here. you care. thanks for the insight you have passed on to me or that i have gleaned from reading your thoughts to others. thanks for asking about me. thanks for taking the time to make suggestions to me. i appreciate your postings- your realism, your lightheartedness, your love, your spiritual connection. check in periodically. prayers continue for your husband. aimee

MJ,
I am sorry to see you go... But fully understand where you are coming from.
That was one of my main fears when I lost my job. I was spending much to much time on the Net...

I wanted to let you know that I often think about you and the boys,I pray for you and your family.

Take care, dear friend.
You are an awesome lady and I praise God for having known you.

Keep in touch...

Lots of love and prayers for healing....

MJ I know what you mean....I am going to stop spending so much work time here too!

Our office is too busy some days anyway, to spend any time here.

Hey you and Mr.MJ and the boys have a wonderful holiday season.
Drop in from time to time to update us won't you?

love
Debi

Good bye for now, Dear One...you will be missed. This site has become so rancorous it isn't healthy..pretty soon we will all leave for one reaosn or another...your reason is the best.

Love and God speed

Good job, MJ!

Now, wouldn't it be funny if we started an email group to support each other in our becoming un-addicted to this site? LOL

Here's to taking care of ourselves so we can better care for others,
J

<small>[ November 26, 2002, 04:52 PM: Message edited by: Jenny ]</small>

MJ,

I know exactly what you mean about being here during working hours.. Best of luck to you and your family. I wish you nothing but happiness and a healed heart.

CM

I'll miss you sharing your wisdom and life experiences! Looking forward to your return... What if you only have certain days and hours when you post and just make yourself stick to the limit??? I hate to see you go but I do understand... (((HUGS)))