I will probably just monitor this as opposed to reply, but I was wondering if you wanted to tell us how recovery was going. I have been away awhile so maybe you already have. I hope you and your husband are doing well, getting some counseling and building a safe and happy marriage for both of you. You were, IMO, a brave woman to tell him the truth. Most of our spouses were "found out."

MJ

Recovery is going well for us, although it is a slow process and I'm an impatient person. Mostly with myself. I want results faster than I am able to produce them sometimes. Life isn't always easy but I soppose it wasn't meant to be easy. I've spent the last year or so in a depressed daze and until recently, I didn't accept that fact. I thought only weak people suffered from depression.
That came as a surprise to me that my will to be strong couldn't control everything inside myself.

I remembered recently something that someone on this board said to me, like day 1 or 2 of my arrival here. They said love was a choice and not a feeling. Boy, did that stump me then. Not to mention infuriate me. However, I have realize that life, love, happiness, all of it is really a state of mind, for me. It is a choice and I think I've made the right one.

CM

CMiranda...is that YOU?? <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I remembered recently something that someone on this board said to me, like day 1 or 2 of my arrival here. They said love was a choice and not a feeling. Boy, did that stump me then. Not to mention infuriate me. However, I have realize that life, love, happiness, all of it is really a state of mind, for me. It is a choice and I think I've made the right one.

CM
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I mainly lurked on your post...but, boy, you sound like you have grown!!

Good to hear from you. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

<img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> Whoooops... <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" />

<small>[ February 26, 2003, 03:07 PM: Message edited by: Susan ]</small>