Well my little gift from the Lord arrived on May 1st after having an emergency c-section due to his heart rate dropping. He needed to be in NICU for 4 days but was able to come home with me healthy and happy. His blood sugar had dropped due to his cord being pinched during contractions and his glycogen stores were used up cuz he's a skinny boy!
Tim did show up at the hospital during my labor and when the decision was made to go for the c-section he chose to go into the room with me. He prayed and sang my favorite song to me and spent time with Matthew when he was born.
We are on a roller coaster and after spending a couple of days together this last week it looks like again he wants to end things. I can't be positive but I think he now has another person in the picture. I just see smoke and he won't talk about it, but what I have heard and seen pretty much appears to be. I know that Satan pulls harder when things seem to be going towards reconcilliation and that is where we are at.
Today is our 12th anniversary and it's hitting me kinda hard. I wish I could go back and change the way I've acted in our marriage. I love this man more than ever and have faith that God can restore us.
My little Matthew is just perfect.. he's a good baby and beautiful. I know I'm biased but he really is a good baby.
Thanks to all who have supported me even though I am a FWS. I can tell you that your faith in me hasn't been for nothing. God has worked in my life in so many ways and I am such a stronger person for it. I have to depend on God daily for my support and love and he is providing. I don't know what the future holds for me and Matthew at this point but I do pray it includes Tim.
Our DNA results should be back by Friday. Please pray for God's will to have been done there. I have asked for a miracle but even if Matthew does end up being OM's I know he has a purpose.
Thanks again for the support...Patty

Congratulations Butterfly emerging. I will be praying for you and your family and that God be with you Friday as you find out the results. Keep us posted.

Babies have a way of softening most peoples hearts, I hope your precious little one has that effect on Tim.

I wish nothing but the best for the three of you.

God bless.

BE,

I am glad to hear that Matthew is out of danger, and all is well now! I can only imagine what it was like for you during labor, delivery, and the days that he was in NICU! I'm sorry to hear that Tim may still want to divorce! I will continue to pray for you both!

Congrats on the birth of your wonderful little boy!

Love,

Tigger

patty! congratulations!

i've been thinking about you lately and wondering if you'd had matthew yet. h and i just moved and don't have internet access (kill me! i even DREAMT about email last night! yikes), so i haven't been able to check in much.

very good to hear that both you and he are doing well. you said he was a "skinny boy"... how big was he?

i'm getting pretty anxious/excited to be able to hold my own baby soon... even though i still have a hard time believing that i'm actually having a baby! less than two weeks now.

congrats again.

amy