<small>[ July 03, 2003, 06:07 PM: Message edited by: autumnday ]</small>

Aut,
My heart goes out to you.
I know those feelings all too well. I still go through spells where I feel like that.

You may be right.. there had to be a reason for you to go through that experience... to get a glimpse of the "other side" so to speak.

You and your H handled it perfectly... calmly.. no LBs...

You are blessed, my friend... Blessed to have a H that you can talk to so openly...

Stacia <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

Oh.. and Mac says Hi to your little one!!! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I heard a saying that was something like this, "you don't look underneath the bed unless you have hid there yourself!"

Sounds like you went through a lot of changes! What would your reaction have been if it were true?

Were you afraid that he might leave you?

You must be so relieved. I think I would be kicking myself from all the unnecessary worry. Your poor baby was reacting all your negative emotions too! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> Still, I think it's good to stay on your toes. Never take your hubby for granted. Never let your appearance go. Keep working on yourself. Keep growing. Keep improving.

Do your homework. Stay alert. Trust God with all your heart and God alone...

<small>[ June 25, 2003, 06:06 PM: Message edited by: BINthereDUNthat ]</small>

Autumn,

I read your post and I can understand how you feel.

We got Caller ID about a year ago. My DH is a Doctor (hence screen name).
Well We have different hospitals call all the time, One of the Hospitals that have been in the same location for YEARS comes up as a Major areospace CO that isnt even in my state.

My Husband sometimes calls me from the "Doctors lounge" and it comes up as a different Corp (nothing to do with the hospital) BUT if I call that number back I get a VM of a man that works for a different CO.

This happens ALL the time. I checked it out, trust me I know it's the Dr lounge cuz other Docs have called my DH from there.
Caller ID is a GREAT new goody, BUT it is NOT perfected.

To make yourself feel better maybe you can contact his Sec or whoever knows where he is.
and maybe its time he does let you know were he goes.

Good Luck, From my personal expirence I tend to believe the lady, I dont think your DH was ever there.

Aut,

I chose the "embarrassed" face cause I did a VERY similar thing about a month ago! Sailorman had gone down to the main office in March, and had to use my cell phone. His work cell phone got shut off due to an error at the main office. So, since he needed a phone, he took mine. Well, when the bill came in, there were some numbers that I didn't recognize! He's at the office while I'm looking at this bill, and I start doing that reverse number thingy! Of course, it comes up with no name for that number! I frett about it for about an hour, and decide to call and ask about it. He says he doesn't know what the number was(oh, and the calls were made when he was down at the main office early that morning, he'd spent the night down there)! I tell him I'm sorry for bothering him at work and we hang up. Well, it still bothered me, so I decided to call this number, and it is a pre-paid cell number!!!! OK, can anyone say red flags?!?! So, I worry a little more, then call him back and let him know what I'd found out, and none to gently this time, as I believed I was "on to something"! After crying and being frustrated with him and vice versa, he finally asks the dates of the calls, and I tell him. The light goes on for him, and it was a "shipper" as they call the enlistees right before they "ship" off to bootcamp, and he was calling to be sure they were all together with everything they needed!

Needless to say, I was very embarrassed, but in my case, he knew that I had reason to feel the way I did, and understood! I don't know how many times I apologized for being so suspicious, and he forgave me every time I asked! I think, as the WW w/OC it is a very real thing for us to feel that something like that will happen. Maybe it's a feeling of, "This is my punishment for what I did" or "I deserve it". But, it's not the truth! Our H's have forgiven us, and just by your H asking how the baby was doing is proof that he's ready and willing to accept this little baby as his own! Things may seem strained for a short time after the baby is born, but the bonding will happen, and if you keep working on rebuiling your M, it will be stronger by then, and will be better too!

Now, for yourself, take a few deep breaths, thank God for your life, and take care of yourself, the baby, and the rest of your family!

Love,

Tigger

I am sure those 4 hours seemed like a life time, You brought back a lot of memories, except my discoveries were all real.
I have waited all hours of the night to hear from him, at first you make excuses <img border="0" title="" alt="[Roll Eyes]" src="images/icons/rolleyes.gif" /> , then you get suspicious. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" /> .. around midnight, Your no fool, You know what he is doing <img border="0" alt="[Teary]" title="" src="graemlins/teary.gif" /> , by two in the morning, you feel guilty for thinking the worst, Maybe he had a wreck or is hurt. around 4am. You want to kill him if he hasnt been hurt and is not in the hospital. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />

Then he walks in the door... He says I didnt do any thing it isnt what you think.. WE just talked, Yeah with your clothes off <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" />
Then after discovery, You start mistrusting every thing and every one, It can last weeks, or years. Some days I remember as if they were this morning.. Some days I remember like it was a lifetime ago and I dont think about any more. You mistrust every one and wonder could he be sleeping with her.. Now if your thinking straight, You know as cute as he is, or How nice he is for the time he is trying to get someone into bed, He couldnt be with all of them <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> .. but still in your mind, You think, did she .. would she <img border="0" title="" alt="[Confused]" src="images/icons/confused.gif" />
Not a fun place to be..

<small>[ July 03, 2003, 06:09 PM: Message edited by: autumnday ]</small>

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