I just want to say thank you to all of you who have replied and supported me in this horrible time in my life! This site and you have made me feel so much better about what I am going through. I no longer feel so alone. Its so terrible that a person, any person shoould have to go through anything like this. And I feel so sorry for the childeren. Both BC and OC! I still have 3 months before I have to deal with OC being born but I know that if my H gives me a chance,which he says he wants me to, I can be a great stepmom. The only problem is....I think that they still care for eachother. I know he still cares (maybe loves) OW. Its so hard to think about that. Anyways, Put me in your prayers please. I really want our marriage to work. And I am trying to accept ow in my life but I am just so afraid that when the baby is born, that will be a connection between them that will bring them closer. Im confussed. Anyway I want to thank you all for being there for me and everyone else! You all make a difference! Thanks! love, Dodie